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Posted on December 27, 2010 at 06:15:20 AM by Alexi & Sephyr
 Alexi glances at Paddy, confused. How had he been here before? How was he in one of Paddy’s memories? ‘Even if I did visit the kids – and I didn’t all that frequently, only enough that they didn’t forget me, and didn’t turn into pansies – aren’t you touched that I cared? I must say, it is rather adorable that they worked out that I was the ‘real’ one.’ He grins, realizing that he was only still in this version of the Starground because of the contact with Patrick, just as the children are only in the world because he forced contact on Patrick. ‘You know, I never understood why you let me near you. You could easily just…’ He made a flicking motion, ‘Bugger off elsewhere. It’s not like you couldn’t have avoided me, after that first time. Do you remember the first time?’ He grins slyly, eyes watching Paddy carefully. ‘You were so innocent, your body soft and warm under me, and yet… it’d all happened before, hadn’t it, and it had been even worse then. I wasn’t anything new to you. I’d say you had been up for it if you hadn’t been so damn upset afterwards.’ So he was championing Frodo, rather than being the fair, equal loving parent Alexi would have predicted of him. Is that because Adia reminds him more of Alexi, with her strange tail? How cruel of him. Everything Frodo has done has been for Adia – that’s power that’s hard to come by. ‘Everything I should want to be?! Darling. I would not say such things if I were you. I have been nothing if not honest with you.’ It’s true. He’s never lied to the boy, and he’s been loyal to their little family, and as for bravery, that is a fighting quality, and he’d never been considered a coward. How odd, that Paddy would name those qualities as the ones he lacked. Gentleness, goodness, kindness, he could easily have identified as lacking in himself. But these ones? No. These are just wrong assumptions. He can feel the boy’s pain and irritation through his thoughts. ‘It’s not like you know what Adia’s been up to. You’re more of a fool than I thought if you think I’ve been babysitting her since she left. Why would I waste my time? She needs to learn to survive on her own, so why would I hinder that? I’ve given her a few tips, things I’ve found along my own way, but I’m baffled as to where your opinions on this come from. I can see that you’ve kept Frodo behind with your mollycoddling, so I suppose she had more help than him in that way, but really…’ He trails off. Why argue? He doesn’t care enough. Frustrated, he lets go of the boy, and the garden seems to start to fall apart, as if the breaking of contact has broken its stability. The ground heaves beneath his feet, and stars start to show through. Alexi glares around him, willing Paddy to stay within his sight. ALEXI
I have earned my disillusions.
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- we’re running out of alibis - By Patrick December 30, 2010 at 06:22:09 PM
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