Amir
”There is no victory with no loss.”
All I ever wanted was to make him proud, to show him that I was worth every breath he took in the trainings, that every single drop of rain spilled on my ivory pelt in those days when we trained together was worth. That every minute we had been together had not been wasted. But I let my feelings guide me to the wrong place. I felt guilt for Ruvindra’s loss and went there. I fell. I did wrong. I didn’t just disappoint Devil. I was angry at myself. I wanted another chance to show Devil that I am worth, that he didn’t waste any second of his life taking care of me, training me and I would do everything I needed to do to prove him that. To have his forgiveness.
I told him, how much I wanted him to be proud of me. I see no doubt in his eyes. This gives me more strength to move on. He doesn’t question my words. I keep speaking and tell him, that I am willing to do this. Not for myself, but for him. To show him I am worth and make him proud. To have his forgiveness and finally have the honor of being called his son. It is my dream to hear this from his own lips… Son… And I will fight for this, I will show him I am worth of such name! He is speechless for a moment. But then, he sighs. And finally he tells me what to do. I will meet him at Diveen once they are named the alpha and alphess. I will keep the name Malum until I show them I am worth of my true name once more. I breath steadly, my head raises high once again as I hear it from him. This is it… This is my chance. And I won’t waste it! His eyes burn into mine, making a fire start deep within my heart.
A fire, that burns in me, that makes me want to keep going on. That makes me want to fight, to go on and show everyone that I am worth. I look back into his eyes, showing this flame to him through my eyes. Showing him that I will fight for this, that I won’t give up, that I will do everything I need to do to make him proud of me, that I will fight for this and nothing will stop me. Not the guilt, not the guilt for my mother loss, not the pain I feel every night, not the world, not my past I have cried so much for, not even my enemy’s fangs… Which took away my mother’s life with a cold heart.
- I will… And I won’t disappoint you this time, this… I promise.- I have never spoken with such will, with such strength.
I took a moment to look into his eyes, making sure to show him that I meant every word before I slowly turned my frame and walked away, I would have to train more. It can take time, but I will do this. I assure it! I promise… I won’t disappoint you, I won’t give up… I will do this for you… Father.
6 Years old | Lonely wolf | Forever Bluejay’s lover | --38in/170lbs--
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