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Without you I just can't get by IP: 98.92.213.54 Posted on June 20, 2013 at 02:59:50 PM by Natalya
you say i'm beautiful, your voice is my healing
How does one simply overcome a need, a want so great that they can move to another? How can one simply refuse the call of the perfect mate? One who could understand you far better than any other simply because they already know who you are and how you feel, perhaps even better than you know yourself. She understands she never had a chance. Looking back she can see it all as she can see her own paws. He may have given her the first and only litter she has ever birthed, may have taken what was hers to give. She knows he didn't think of her purity, didn't think that her virginity had been saved, a sign that she was not yet ready to throw her art to the side. She understands now that what he did, he did out of instinct. That entire snowy play day had turned into something heated and uncontrollable. For both of them it had become something they couldn't stop. With Titan it had nearly been the same, though entirely different. She hadn't played before hand, her eyes didn't take on the happy sheen they would have, his eyes were not the yellow she had come to love, and his fur was not the perfect shade of black. He was a muscular male, large, powerful in his own right...but Natalya had simply carried the torch for too long to ever let another attempt to dull its flame. It could not happen and she felt disgust enough that she retched for days after the attempt.
Sadness reached her gaze for a fleeting moment, rare now for her to display any emotion for another save indifference. She wanted to cry, to break there in front of him, but she understands her tears are only weakness. Her soul cries, and internally she lets herself break down. On the outside she remains sad looking, though a little more so as he continues to speak. Fighting...the corner of her mouth twitches up only slightly, barely enough for the eye to catch, but there is a glimmer of pride in her. She couldn't think any more, she didn't want to, something else was tugging at her, a deep seated need.
Her burning yellow gaze lands on him, fires within her soul coming to life and in this moment she is closer to her true self than she ever had been before. She is almost like a reflection of him, his hard gaze on her, burning her skin where it touches. She growls. "How do you ignore me so? Then dare to feel anger at the one I chose. Dare to make such plans. You think I do not feel it, twisting in your gut like a well planted antler? You have ignored me since we returned to Moladion, you chose her repeatedly. I wish to know why. Why must you love her more than you love me? And don't you dare try and tell me we stand on equal ground. I do not wish to hear any more lies. I do not want half truths. What gives her the advantage other than time? If it is time you require..." She stops, her ears lancing back as she stands, moving so close to him she nearly touched his nose. One twitch of a muscle and he would touch her, she raises her lips as she speaks, her teeth clenched tightly together as she tries not to snap at him. Her entire being recoils at the thought, but she is quickly losing her patience for this mad game. "I would have given anything...anything to be at your side. To be the one you hold at night, to be the one who got to wake up with you in the morning. I would have sold my soul if it meant I got to be the one you look at with such a fire burning in your eyes. You knew I would have. Without you, life becomes as meaningless as a blade of grass to me. Devil...I...I loved you, still love you." She chokes on the words, her throat closing painfully as she utters them for perhaps the second time.
Her expression softens and she inhales shakily. Why did she say it? She couldn't stop. She could not stop talking now, not when she had years to confess to, not when this much time has passed with this many secrets. As she speaks she moves away, laying down with her back to him, sighing as she continues. "I gave you everything, Devil. My life's art, my body, my soul, my heart, our children. I wanted nothing more than to see you happy. I tried so hard to make you see, but you were blinded to it, or unwilling to see it. Your soul died as your love of heart grew, every day I saw you with her, every moment you spent with her, another piece of me fell to envy, to hatred of her, to madness." She makes a choked sob, a bitter laugh at the end. "I wanted so badly to be in her pawprints, for you to look at me as you did her. To be loved, to hold you when you needed to be loved. I only wish you could see how much he tried. Titan did his best to clean up the mess you left behind, and he had succeeded for a while, in Glorall. But, I felt guilty, disgusted with myself for wanting to love him back. I felt like excrement when we left Moladion and I started to panic when I felt our bond slacken." It is a confession, one of the longest times she has spoken.
"We stopped when I felt it first, and I wished to stay, I did not want to leave anymore, I wanted to come back. So we settled, where I could still feel you and everything you came with. Because I couldn't love him. I told him this and he told me to come here. I stayed out there, wandering, trying not to come to the call of sadness, then the nothing that comes with such ease to you. I felt the light in you go dark, and I felt you turn to shadow. I wished to go to you the moment it happened, but there is a darkness in me as well, there is something in me that wanted you this way. Because, while you may be blank externally, I know what you feel...even if you wish not to feel it. I know that in this state you suffer. I know that you wished for my return, that you wanted me back and still I wished for you to suffer as I have suffered. To decline as I have. I wanted you to feel this emptiness, to feel as if you had no where to turn for comfort." She looks at him now, watching his face, understanding that she will not see what she needs there. Not caring that he would not show her. He couldn't love her, not as she wished to be loved. "But, I could not continue to let it happen. Not idly. I had to come home, because this is where my heart is, where my soul is, where you are. I want no other, I can be with no other, and if I am meant to walk this land as a ghost then so be it. I am not after your soul, Devil, for I already own it. I am after something that could give us both life, and you know it. I cannot have what I seek because I am not a thief. I am a killer. I am the daughter of the War-hammer and the Destroyer. I am vengeance, I am death, and I am karma. But, I am not a thief, I cannot be." She stands, rounding on him, staring him in the face. She would be close to his ear, prodding at him, trying to make him strike her. For a touch, no matter how painful, from him it is a touch. She wants his anger, she wants to feel him bite her, needs it even. She wants him to feel as angry as she had. And this is the point, she reaches out, her jaws parting to grasp the side of his neck, putting a firm but gentle pressure on her teeth, gently tugging at him. A touch of a ghost, a wraith, half of a wolf made whole at such a gesture.
"Speech"
without you i just can't get by, so i'm hanging on
female || fourteen || love for None || Soul of Devil May Cry || no home
Lightning Queen
The Queen of Diveen. She may accept all challenges and block any steal. She is the sworn protector of the pack and all who reside here.
Thunder King
The Lightning Queen's mate and second-in-comman. He may accept any challenge and block all steals. He may accept new members. This position cannot be challenged for but is currently empty.
Whirlwind
This rank belongs to the closest advisor to the Lightning Queen. This wolf can block steals and accept new members. When there is no Thunder King, this rank may accept challenges. This rank cannot be challenged for.
Stormfront
These wolves are the protectors of the borders and are personal guards to the Lightning Queen. They may help to gauge new wolves and are essentially the domestic protector. In certain times they may be called upon to resolve domestic disputes, but generally they are tasked with watching the borders or staying close to the Lightning Queen. At times, information may need to be brought to the Stormfront who will personally deliver messages to the Lightning Queen.
Quake
The Quake is the lead warrior and in charge of the Tremors, who make up the brute force of the pack. This wolf is a protector of the borders and may accept new wolves. They may be called upon to help gauge a new member. They train the Tremors. Haze
The Haze is the head thief and secret keeper of the pack, charged with acting in the pack’s best interest and operating with a low profile. They train the Mists. They also act as a scout, relaying and finding out information. They work closely with the Tsunami. This wolf may block steals. Monsoon
The Monsoon is the lead healer and caregiver of the pack. They are tasked with healing wounds, assisting with births, and making sure that the pack remains happy and healthy both mentally and physically. They may also be called upon to boost morale through storytelling or other means. They train the Rains. Tsunami
The Tsunami is the lead diplomat and peacekeeper, tasked with protecting the pack from internal and external strife, as well as form treaties and ally with other packs in conjunction with the Lightning Queen and Whirlwind. They report directly to the Lightning Queen, and train the Tides. Blizzard
The Blizzard works closely with the Haze, but is more of an information gatherer. They may act as a thief at times, but are largely tasked with spying and scouting, reporting their findings to their superiors. Hurricane
The Hurricane is the head hunter of the pack. They train the Wind and organize pack hunts.
Rainbow
This wolf is the joker of the pack. Their job is to bring a smile to everyone's face and try to keep a light mood. They will be tasked with caring for pups and keeping an eye on them. They are the keeper of all types of fun and games for the pack. Gale
The Gale is concerned mostly with keeping track of the history of the pack, collecting stories and learning of events that might have happened long ago. They might tell history as stories to pups or create events in honor of those who have gone before.
Tremors
These wolves report to the Quake and make up the protectors and warriors of the pack.
Mists
The agents of the Haze, these wolves are tasked with maintaining order through more secretive means.
Tides
The Tides are diplomats and report to the Tsunami, they may be tasked with updating treaties or contacting allies.
Rains
These are the healers and caregivers of the pack, and they report to the Monsoon. They may be called upon as healers or babysitters. Winds
These are the hunters of the pack, responsible for feeding each member. They report to the Hurricane. Snows
These are the scouts of the pack, reporting to the Blizzard- they are involved with information gathering, both internal and external, and may be called upon as guerilla fighters of sorts should the time come.
Dusk
The general members of the pack, those who have not yet chosen a path or rank. However, they are still highly valued and may be called upon for other things.
Twilight
The apprentices of the pack, pups older than one who are in training.
Dawn
The innocence and the future of our pack.
Day
Esteemed guests of the pack.
Sun
Those allied with the pack, to be treated with respect and offered assistance.
Moon
Those who shine down upon us and guide us with their light.
Eclipsed
Those who have proven themselves enemies of the pack, they should not be trusted.