I was still calculating him, I wasn’t sure what to think of this little visit. Really I was waiting for him to plow me into the ground and for us to start our never ending war. I would hurt him if he did. I was in no mood to be even somewhat gentle should he decide to start that up. I wanted things to be normal, but not that normal I guessed. I simply gave another sigh as he spoke of how our home was beautiful, but lacking. I wasn’t sure he understood, it was not lacking beauty or entertainment as I was sure he was thinking. It was lacking the very thing that, to me, made it home. Family made home, home, not the view. I was lacking this, I had Alcide and his children, but they were not my family but caretakers. I could tell he tried, he really did, to try and rid me of this feeling. I never had a father, I didn’t need one, I needed my mom, my sister. Abandoned, that was the feeling.

It was indeed clear though that the male I considered my rival did not understand my problems as he spoke. Really though, what he said did make me feel a little better. He considered me family? ”Am I?” I couldn’t help but question it. ”It’s funny… All my real family is pretty much gone, I having seen Rhi in a while, she wanders about a lot, I see and talk to her a bit, but….” He sighed shaking his head, ”You have Butterfly and Miss Rainbow though, they are your family, and they are around at the very least. My mom is gone, Leo. She left us, I doubt you heard, but I stay with Moonglow, but she is sick and unable to care for anyone really and Alcide, well he’s alpha and too busy for anyone else, he barely gets to see his own kids let alone some extra baggage like me.” I shrugged, hoping he understood now what was eating me inside. No one was there for me, I lost my mom and I had to deal with it on my own, both myself and Rhiannon did. I didn’t even have the birds to make me feel even slightly better about my life anymore. They were my outlet for my sadness.

I genuinely was interested in his little plan to explore. Again I had nothing at Spirane right now for me. ”You mean, like just the two of us? On an adventure? You don’t think that’s a bad idea?” I was joking a little, I actually rather liked the idea of looking around the rest of these lands. My face persed though as he mentions my sister again, ”No, she won’t I’m sure of that, but Butterfly seems like the sort that would.” I teased back lightly, though really I was serious. She was the adventuring type after all, I could probably manage to take her somewhere really spectacular after this.



~ Sings To No Soul ~ Serenades None ~