At Leisure Lake the sun is always shining and only a few stray clouds roam the open sky; paradise is the one word that really describes it. This beautiful lake is clean and refreshing, the very best place to swim and fish. Pups are known to play here while older wolves watch at the side, engaged in their own activities.
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Posted on July 18, 2013 at 01:22:55 AM by NIKANDROS
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Everything is so confusing right now. I have confessed my feelings to Kohaku and then she disappears. And now Llorana is coming back and apparently wishes to claim me as her own. I don't know what to think of this. Does Llorana really want me or is it just some petty game? Is she just angry that I found someone else while she was gone? I was only a cub when I met her and by the time I was a teen, she was gone, out of my life. I grieved for her but I got over it. Kohaku was my saving grace. I put everything into persuing her because she was so mysterious, a true modesty. She was nothing like the other wolves I courted, all ready to lay down all their dirty little secrets for one night with the prince of Malignant. Not Kohaku though. She wouldn't even give me the time of day. And now Llorana shows her dark side and I think I might actually like it. What is wrong with me? Why am I trying to fuck this up? I love Kohaku. I know it as surely as the sky is blue. Does she love me? Well, she said as much. Yet where has she been this whole time? I know she must be scared. She sure looked it in the cavern. She looked scared to death. I'd never seen her so hesitant. Surely I couldn't be the cause of this. Has she come down with something? Is she hurt somewhere and I can't get to her? Is she wondering where I am and why I haven't come to save her? The whole thing just frustrates me to no end. What if she's reconsidered and decided she doesn't love me so she feels the need to avoid me? What if it was all a game? I shake my head of such thoughts. I shouldn't be thinking this way. I feel all jumbled up inside. I feel like I'm inside out and I don't know which way to turn to set things right. What am I doing with Llorana and what can I do for Kohaku? Would we ever be a normal couple with cubs and such? Could she ever see herself mated to me? Would Llorana allow it? I find myself following the trail to Leisure Lake, though I'm not sure why. I guess a dip doesn't sound so bad. Maybe I'll be able to swim off all my frustration. It's not like there's anything going on in Malignant right now. Everything's pretty dead. Devil's off fighting for mom and I dont' know where mom is. I don't know where most of my family is, or the pack for that matter. The gentle breeze is a relief on my charcoal coat, often overheated by the sun's rays. Sometimes I wish I could have gotten more of Arcadian's coloring but I don't know. I like the red stains. I head toward the banks, licking my lips as I look forward to a cool drink from the water's surface. When I inhale deeply, I can smell the faint aroma of females in heat. It's enough to drive a guy wild but today I have more troubles than I need and I certainly don't need to add to it. I try to avoid company for the time being, circling wide around gathering, my eyes hungry only for the water. I've dropped by Kohaku's den on more than one occasion but she seems to never be there. The question again pops to mind: is she avoiding me? I make it to the water, taking a drink as my ears flicker alertly. I wonder if she's heard about Llorana coming back yet. I'm sure it's no secret and most of the pack knows how inseparable we were. I can only hope Kohaku doesn't think the worst. Could that be why she's avoiding me? Does she think I've gone and forgotten her? That could never happen. I hope she knows that. Always, I think of her. And as if by magic, I see her, standing by the banks of the lake on the other side, unmoving, like a statue froze in time. I'm entranced for a moment, taking in her gorgeous figure with the glowing coat and the eyes that can see right through me. She has no idea of the magic she wields. And then like a mad man, I'm racing right into the water, eager to be close to her, too eager for the effort of going around the lake. No, I plan to go right through it. I start paddling as I reach the deep end, my head staying well above the surface as I swim to her. When I get closer, I call out to her, wanting to see her reaction, wanting to read it for myself. Will she run away or will she come to me? Will she stand frozen and make me come to her or will she turn away? "Kohaku! Kohaku!" Nikandros_male_adult_no mate_brother to Leonidas, Kaizer, Ariston & Nyrobi_Queens x Arcadian x Sidorio _prince of Malignant Felicity |
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