Amir
”There is no victory with no loss.”
I can't believe that he attacked two wolves without any reason. He who was disappointed when I... Betrayed his pack. Now, for some reason he did simply the same. But he attacked not only a member of the pack, but a member of other pack. I don't know why. I am confused. I am disappointed. I never thought...
I washed these thoughts away and concentrated only in finding him. Where would he be at? A long sigh leaving my muzzle as I tried to think. The winter was gone and the snow melted completely. Colorful flowers surround me and the birds sing to the nature in the distance. Everything seems so happy and I am about to be father once again. But, Devil means a lot to me. I am not dependent on him, but... I lost everyone! I lost my family and that pain is too much for me. I don't know if he would be ever able to understand. My mother, my sister and finally and most recently, Jaidah.
When the meteor came, Jaidah survived it and I found her. But she changed, I could feel she wasn't the same. She chose to be beside Vague and leave me, like she did when she took me to Paracon. But worst this time, she chose to be with my enemy, with the one who took everything from me. I couldn't be more sad, I couldn't. Nobody knows about this, but I couldn't feel worst. She knew what kind of wolf he was! She knew that he had tried to kill me, she knew! Why did she do that to me? Why did she leave me when I needed her? What have I done to her? I've never... done anything wrong to her, have I? I don't understand. When Vague captured me to try to kill me again, he told me what Jaidah was like, truly. How she loved to eat other wolves. How she killed pups with no mercy. I still can't believe. But... After some time, I recieved the news about her death and... I should have been there. I should...
Devil is the only one who stayed. He had been the only one who really helped me since the very beginning. He trained me, he protected me, he was there when I needed him. I can't lose him, I can't. He... is my father! I can't lose again, I can't lose anymore. No more. Not again.
I have to find him. At least to know that he is alright, that he is safe.
I raised to my paws quickly and right in that moment, my ears twitched to hear the voice that came from behind me, I turned and looked at him. Devil! My tail waved once behind me. He found me instead! He was asking me why I came after him. I took a tentative step closer, only to see him taking a step back. I stopped and looked at him, tilting my head slightly.
- Because I care about you!
I answered lightly. Letting my eyes scan his entire form, looking for any kind of wounds or anything at all.
-... Where have you been?... Why didn't you come back to Diveen? - I asked softly.
8 Years old| Diveen Wolf | Forever Bluejay's lover
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