amaterasu
I have always survived those times I had been pushed around by the world we live in and by fate itself, I am not blind bcause I know I can see whether others want me to see the things I do or not. I have not been blinded by things like greed, jeolousy, or percieved need of something, I have not been jaded by hardships or rejection. I have suffered and I have survived it, why should I carry that with me and let it weigh me down? I believe that things only get better if you leave the past behind and do not carry it along with you everywhere you go.
I lay sprawled out along the river bank where the rays of sun light upon my pristine white coat, making the orange russet hues light up almost like something has laid colored light to my coat. Or like the sun itself is claiming me as it's own, but why would anything like the sun want to claim something as mortal as I? It would want something as eternal and as glorious and bright as it is, would that not make more sense? It does to the way my mind works anyway. I angle my head upwards slightly, icey tinted aquamarine gaze looking to the sky for an answer. Of course, some would say I am a foolish dreamer, the sky cannot answer my thoughts., but maybe I am different from those with their paws solidly dug into the ground.
And yet, just as all those wolves would have said, the answer truly did not come, no matter how much I wanted it to. A soft, almost mournful sigh leaves my lips as I rest my head upon my paws. Sometimes I feel so disconnected from this world I love so much and it makes my heart ache and it just hurts. I have felt so disconnected ever since my bond with Nines strengthened. It had happened ever since I had gotten everything I wanted. Maybe that was the reason. Maybe I have something I need to do, that makes most sense.
priestess flip side of the coin
And that's what you get when you let your heart win
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating
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