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The Grotto
Disaster has struck!
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IP: 24.108.1.137
Posted on February 26, 2014 at 09:57:44 PM by Paldor
 He doesn't know how he got here, here is a relative term really, where was here? blank white eyes follow the line of his head from left to right, up and then down, as he looked at the waterfall that rushed past his feet by mer centimeters. Here was a relative term because the male didn't even know what day it was, didn't know what hour it was, other than the fact that it was day and the sun was up in the sky. How long had he been standing here? how long had he had these thoughts roll through his mind. Death. It was the only way out. She drove him to this, it was all her fault. If only he could do it. If only he could make it all go away. He'd tried... oh he'd tried so very very hard to make the pain stop. It wasn't Ruvindra's eyes that stared at him when he slept, when he was awake. It wasn't her at all that tried to pull him this way and that. The pain was all her. All the white woman that caused this entire thing to start up in the first place. "Your worthless," a voice rang out in his head. It was Ruv, but it wasn't really her. "You left me... you left me all alone" tears ran from the corners of his white eyes to mix into the grungy yellow white of his coat around his face "I'm sorry...." he whispers out under the roar of the falls "don't you tell me your sorry, useless peice of shit!" the words spit at him like nails from a nail gun, spiking deep into his heart and tearing it to shreds with each impact he flinches "that's not true..." he whispers again, his eyes close against the pain in his heart as the falls roar within his ears "it is, why can't you deal with it? why can't you just jump already, save us all from looking at your disgusting body" he sighs, his face dipping down to touch the inside of his front leg to whipe the water from his face. The fur of his body is begining to grow slick from the water that sprays up from the water fall, slowy drenching his coat and making it feel heavy the weight of which made him feel even more down. The opium in the poppy seeds hadn't been enough for him so he had moved onto the white secretions of the pulp and bulb of the plant. This had sent him on a downward spiral, making his mind go darker and darker. With his abilities to see the future and the fact that he had always heard voices ever since leaving his old home in a smokey pile of ruines. "Your so pathetic Paldor, you can't even look me in the face when I'm talking to you" a low rumble deep within his chest releases from his mouth, with each bout of words he slips further and further towards the edge of the rock, a gulp follows the latient growl as he tries to swollow the ball of spit in the back of his throat but to no avail. "Don't, just don't Ruvindra, you knew..." the words barely slip from his lips as he lets loose a lonely, sad and nostalgic howl across all that is the portrait of this landscape, it is a wolf's final cry. One that signifies the end of his life, the voice cackles within his head a figment of his imagination and the drugs that course wildly through his body "I knew what Paldor? pray, do tell me what I knew" his head twists oddly on it's axis as if he wants to look behind him, one last time but for whatever reason his body does not conform to his brain. "Ruvindra, you knew that I wasn't all there... why are you doing this to me?" more tears, more sadness, he feels as if everything that has happened, is because of him. "We would all be better off without you anyways, I never loved you, our children aren't yours and the pack will hunt you down and slaughter you if you even try to return" he can't see it but his mental image of her can't help but see a sneer across her face. That was it, this was his last step... "this is how he speaks" "The voices in his head" Arctic Wolf | Male | Ten | Auspex | Ruvindra | no bond | Iromar
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