It is very good to have someone to listen to me. It is funny to think sometimes, whenever I was so sad with my heart broken there was somebody there. In the first time when I had no more hope of standing again, there she was the pretty ivory flower in the middle of my desert. Ruvindra. She took me to her pack and there she healed my heart with harsh words. She made me see that there was still hope and I swore for my life that I would be with her no matter what happened. It was true for so long. We had been together through many things. We had lived together and made it to Trenus. I betrayed my pack and all that happened after that was only bad. I managed to join again, lying about Amir and the skies seemed to punish us for my crime. A meteor destroyed everything. I lost my three children. I have never been so sad, I couldn’t speak for two years, not without crying for our loss. I can’t remember much of these parts of my life, it’s been a huge blur in my mind and I am somehow grateful for now. I’m still not ready to know what I have done. But I will. I will work on remembering.

Now here I am with a wolf kind enough to listen to me and even to give me advice. She told me. Her voice was quick to tell me, but still gentle. I should let them know how I am sorry. Well, perhaps I should do that. If they only knew that it wasn’t my intention. I’ve already started with both Amir and Devil. I’m not so sure that Heyel would like the idea of talking to me again. I’m not sure he would even listen. But I will do my best, I will try. My head nodded.

- You’re right… I will do my best

I assured her that I would and it would be done! My eyes looked into hers as her gaze seemed to get lost somewhere. She seemed to know something, to be worried about something. Well, I wish I was like Amir. He could feel others’ emotions by just being close to them. She spoke again in a rushed way and seemed to be scared of something. She told me that she would seek me in Diveen, I nodded once more and watched as she raised to her paws

- Something wrong?

I asked her, now worried myself as she smiled sadly and turned her frame to bolt in a direction unknown to me. I raised to my paws myself and took one step forward. I wanted to help, but… I’m not sure I will be able to keep up…