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The Grotto
Disaster has struck!
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There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about the ones I left behind, my sons, River and Exodus. I know that they didn't deserve that, that with Natalya gone, they need an adult role model in their lives to guide them. I just don't feel that I'm the best one for the job. I know the pack will protect them and I know there are wolves there that will reach out to help them. Amir is there and he's still like a son to me, even if I keep letting him down. Voltaire is there and we're on good terms now, or at least I'd like to think we are. My son Kane will take care of him if nothing else cause I know he won't let blood suffer because of me. He knows just how much of a failure I am. I can't ask for their forgiveness cause I don't feel that I deserve it. What I did was inexcuseable. I attacked my granddaughter. I will never live that one down. I look up when the smell of one of my own enters my nose and my ears flick back instantly in discomfort. Why is he here? I would knwo the scent of my own son anywhere. He still smells like his mother and that makes my heart ache for her instantly. I will always love Natalya just as I will always love Kiska. My heart was always torn between the two. he looks at me through the darkness, neither one of us saying a word. I part my jaws then close them again, my eyes filled with immense sadness. I don't know what to say to him. Nothing will make what I did right. Just as I'm about to croak out something weak and pitiful, my own savior comes in the form of the white wolf I've come to respect and adore, something I could never say for another male wolf in my life. He was the first wolf I ever accepted into a pack and before I knew it, he was my equal and yet we never lost touch. It was kind of nice ot have someone to have my back all those years, but I didn't expect him to come to me this time. This time, I thought I'd lost him too. I listen as he scolds River for being here, telling him that he needs to talk to me and coaxing him to go find a butterfly or something. On a usual occasion, this would make me laugh but this time my lips twitch with humor instead. He brushes past River then as he looks at me and my ears drop back again in shame for all I've put him through. When he mentions the boulder assaulting him, my lips twitch again, my eyes regaining a little of the old light they once had in them. As he mentions home though, my breath hisses through my teeth and I take a step back further into the shadows as I shake my head. "No. I cannot go back, Heyel. You saw what happened, what I did. I can never go back. I betrayed them all." My eyes say the rest. I betrayed him too. |
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