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The Grotto
Disaster has struck!
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Age is something that's hard to accept, especially when you've spent most of your life feeling invincible. I've fought for everything and now I'm alone in a cave to spend the rest of my life. I'm no spring chicken but I'm not ready to lie down and die yet. I've still got life to live, even if it's a sorry excuse. I have a lot of time to think now, a lot of time to do nothing but think. I sift through memories, the good times and the bad. My life didn't have a lot of meaning for a long time. I wandered from pack to pack, living off of assassinations and rape. I had no real purpose, just doing what I enjoyed, taking what I wanted when I want. Then I went to Montagne and took over a pack and even though it never really grew, I found meaning while leading it. I met Kiska there and we were so different and yet so alike. Everything was combat with her, even just talking. Then I left Montagne and came to Moladian and took over Paracon and again, I found purpose. I made a life for myself and thought I would live it alone. I was even okay with that fact until she came back into my life. Fighting against Kiska was the most erotic thing I've ever done. It was fun, our word battle while we fought tooth to tooth. It made me live again. She came back as my Beta and I thought that would be our only relationship for the longest time but as time grew, so did that. I don't regret a minute of it. Natalya added a new twist to it. Right as I was on the cusp of asking Kiska for the biggest commitment I have ever made in my life, my coul found it's other half for the third time and this time, it stuck. I won't say I regret that either. Natalya couldn't help what happened just as I couldn't. She felt the bond and she didn't turn her back on it like some females would. She embraced it even when I didn't deserve it. It tore all three of us apart, the new complication in our lives. In the end, Kiska gave me an ultimatum and it was just what I needed to remind me what I really wanted. What I chose for myself, and I chose her. I tried to make her happy, I did, but she could feel my soul being torn and she made the decision to leave on her own. I woke one morning to find her gone and I hunted her down but lost the trail. I grieved for a long time while Natalya worked her magic to heal me and I tried to be happy with her but I was never the same. When Natalya was ripped out of my world, I lost it and hurt another wolf and I'll never forgive myself for that. Kiska appeared to me that day and she was like an angel dropped out of heaven. I should have known she would come back but she hid herself away from me in another pack. She even raised another family without me. I don't judge her for it. I had children with Natalya so what would that make me? I wanted her to find happiness but still she came back for me and I have to believe that means something. I have to believe that means she hasn't given up on us. When a song lights up the night, I know exactly who's singing it and who she's singing it for and so I go to it. I ignore the aches in my limbs and go to her, like I always will. When her silhouette appears, a grumble of pleasure escapes my lips. I move to her, brushing against her side possessively and nibbling at her ears. "You came back." DMC_male_twenty years_no mate_imprinted on |
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