watch the sunset disappear Posted on January 17, 2015 at 11:41:41 PM by i s o b e l
It was clear that Braylen was not happy with my reaction, but when he glowered at me that way, I felt the rejection begin. He may have not pinned his ears at me, but the message was loud and clear. I was not on his good side anymore. I hung my head, turning my face away. I was not going to let him see me struggle to contain my feelings, to keep them from surfacing to my face.
I forced a blank look on my face as the scent of another came upon us, and I lifted my head to look in the direction from which his mother appeared. I felt insufficient, my small stature and inability to talk, I found myself always feeling unworthy whenever I was in front of anyone. And today was no different, especially meeting his mother. The soon to be grandmother of my unborn child. I watched her face softly,
I felt as if I was being abandoned all over again, like I was being kicked out of the one place I knew, by the one person I cared for. I knew he swore to return, but in my heart I felt as if I would never see him again. And being scolded by him for not wanting to leave his side, it stung more than anything. It felt as if my heart was breaking in two pieces, as if I was not the same girl as before. I probably wouldn’t be. Unable to do anything else, I lift my head to watch Skylar and Georgiana, wondering what else to do.