It was his duty.

It was all he could think to convince himself that he was doing the right thing by telling her. He was her dear friend and alpha, and Sen was not here and Sen shouldn’t have to tell her not while he is grieving so. He saw how vacant Sen got the day he told Suomi and now Suomi had vanished again and Coza could only imagine what the girl was getting herself into in Roamin’s name. Nothing to dangerous he hoped, but this wasn’t about Coza it was about the female who as he spoke seemed to shatter before him. That look in her eyes as the words came from his lips, as if he was going to say he was kidding or could fix it as he had done in the past. But she knew, he knew that she was aware that he would never say anything like that, not without seeing the results for himself…

When her eyes finally left his own replacing it with a scream of sorrow and agony he had only seen come from one other before in his life he moved forward trying to hug the female comfort her in any way possible, bring her something even if it meant in her anguished mind that she would bring fangs upon his flesh. If it made her feel better he would bare it, it wasn’t as if he felt like he didn’t deserve it anyway especially at that sound. It was even worse when she begged him, his own eyes were watering feeling so bad for the pain his friend felt. ”I-…I’m sorry, Hush.” Was all he could say meekly at a lost for any more, he couldn’t find them, not that he thought even those three words would bring her anymore comfort. He tried to hug and comfort but she backed away from him shouting she should have been here.

He wasn’t sure what to say, he could only stare at her pain and guilt melting through him as finally a few tears broke through, but he didn’t break his gaze on her. It wouldn’t have changed anything for her to have been here when the deed was done, he was brought here after all, brought by Siren and Sen’s being here certainly didn’t help him, though perhaps if Hush was they would have helped each other. He knew saying she couldn’t have wouldn’t have made her feel better no matter the truth to his words, no one expected it, not even Roamin’s imprint who was there at the scene, she couldn’t stop that cruel fate either and who more to try and stop it than the other half of his soul.

It seemed the only one who would get peace was her though, revenge was thick on everyone’s mind but Coza would not have them inflicting pain on those in Iromar who were not involved. Why was it revenge was the only option for bringing those peace… eye for an eye… it was always that way. Why… what good would it do but continue turning the vicious cycle around and around… Lillith started it…. But as much as he knew it burned in Suomi, Sen and Hush Coza had to keep it from going futher. Not all Demons were evil and dark as the Queen was and now with a new female on the throne… it was pointless to shed any blood of the Iromar wolves there. Why then did revenge always jump first to another wolves mind?

It was then that a golden figure brushed past, in all the anguish and pain he hadn’t detected his second dearest friend and brother, the look on his face, he was not angry with her and truly perhaps at this moment he was her best medicine. He wished he could do them both more, but there are somethings friends could not mend and Coza, as much as he wanted to help accepted that only heart or soul can mend wounds that cut so deep. He would wait away from them give them their moments together to grieve with one another. He wouldn’t be far, but they deserved this moment together and he would come at the slightest call. Backing away still teary eyed he waited behind trees, close enough that he could make out any murmurs but far enough to not be intruding on their sad reunion.