I must say, nights can be a terrible time. They can be a time when the world reforms into a hazy mess. I can see my mother all over again, live and well. I can see her terrible yellow eyes with blood seeping out of them. I see many things at night within my dreams, where obsidian and ruby become more solid and defined over time. Their thoughts are my own and their words are my own. They are me and I am them, and yet in dreams it all seems so different.

And on this night Lillith whispers in my ear and laughs in the darkest of corners. I whirl around and try to catch her, but always fail. I feel my legs twitch and in the real world they twitch as well as I lay beside the white wolf marked in the very same red as I. My lips twitch as my teeth flash between the uncontrolled spasms. My breathing becomes erratic at times, forced and harsh as my twitching and leg movements become more apparent. Even a purr of a growl floats in my mouth.

I hear my name being called, but what voice I cannot initially tell, for it is accompanied by the frightening hiss of Lillith. My own yellow eyes dart open suddenly, wide and almost surprise as my body goes stiff as a log. My ears are pulled back, the air striking my lungs like needles. As my eyes focus in and I see the red-lined eyes of Solaris next to me, I almost immediately change my demeanor. My dark form breaks from the stiffness and loosens as I let a smile on my face, the fear of Iromar and Lillith haunting my dreams and finding my home fading with it.

I find it hard to be away from Solaris. He was one to show me kindness from the start, from way back when I was much younger. I am still tortured by the events of the past, the death of Roamin and my killing of Lillith. Solaris has eased by purring need to steal souls to bring Roamin back. His presence and warmth ensures that I hold onto a part of myself that almost fell away that fated day. Without him I cannot say that I can be...right, or the same, with the desires of Obsidian and Ruby growing strong without someone to distract from them. I find that a part of me can feel something similar to happiness again, despite the numbness that Roamin left behind- a numbness that has never ceased to leave me not even for a moment.

His voice does stir my tail to wage gently behind me. His question was one always welcome. I have not wished to be alone as of late, especially after I was chased by the white ghost of Iromar, by Istas. I feel as if they are going to hunt for me here, but Solaris...he would help me, assist in protecting me as I rip their throats out- but I never tell him that, of course. Excited at the thought of a meal, I thrust forward to plant a lick upon his muzzle.

"Yes, let us go, we must eat, we must feast!"I say with a giggle, my smaller dark form bursting forward and out of the den. I make a quick circle around to look back for Solaris, my quick legs stretching out the confines of the den. The air was cooling with the coming of winter, and the smell of fall was fresh in my nose. I can feel the dirt under my paws with crunch of needles in between. "Should we get a drink first?" I ask him, my throat wishing for a bit of fresh water in a stream near by. I will walk with him wherever he goes regardless, close to his side while looking up and taking in his face and expressions.