and when you smile...
the whole world stops and stares for awhile..
Kellin wished that he understood what he wanted out of life, but he did not. He was as confused as ever on the notion of what it would mean to really be a part of a pack, because he had been so long a gypsy creature and a vagabond before that. He does not relish the memories of vagabond life, and he would much rather forget it altogether if he could, but it was still a part of him, the reason for various scars along his skin. Sabriel had saved him from worse, and for that Kellin had wanted to stick by his brother. Because he did not belong here with Hush, could not seek what he wanted, because he had missed out on so much time with his mother, and yet he could not steal any of that away from the younger siblings who had been there. Kellin had been needy back then, too needy to stay when there had been such a young litter for his mother to take care of. So he had gone back to Sabriel, urged the male to go anywhere else so he did not feel compelled to return. Because he'd wanted to. For weeks, it had lingered on his mind, and he had to stay strong despite it.

Now he was back and older, he did not feel that kind of need anymore for a mother he missed. He wanted to see her, make sure she was happy and okay, but he wasn't with any intent to stay this time, either. To see that his family was fine would be enough for him, and he could let them know that he would be around here and there, that he wasn't planning on roaming far, so they could always find him, perhaps call for him and he would come to that call. But he does not know what he is meant to do, and until that time he felt he needed to stay the wanderer. Sabriel might still keep telling him that he should join a pack and settle, but Kellin isn't sure what to settle for. He needed reason, and without that he felt lost and in need of searching for anything that would make sense to him. Whatever it took, he supposed. And if that thing was in Moladion, then good. He felt something here, that was for sure, but until he understood it, he could not make any promises he could keep. He did not want to partake in even accidental duplicity.

Before the male could respond, someone else had arrived. This one seemed familiar in some way, and she did have violet eyes, though they were dark in color. But eyes he thought he remembered from somewhere.. The colors, too, were not so common in the way they adorned the female. Was it was of the little ones mother had when he'd returned? Of course it was her look that said it all; told him that must be it. Then she was leaning against the younger male, and Kellin heard her words to him. Brother. Which meant he was right, the younger male was related. With more words from the female, his gaze went back to her, and he looked thoughtful. "I think I remember seeing you. You were very small.. but I don't think I'd caught your name back then." He responded, giving her a small smile. As for the other question, the one that spoke volumes without saying quite as much in truth, Kellin frowned slightly. "Just visiting, wanted to see what family was still around.. Not ready to settle down yet, though." He said softly, giving a shrugging roll of his shoulders.
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KELLiN!
male | seven | soulbound to mana | gypsy | tarquin & makism x hush