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She was in her den. I didn’t know where it was before tracking it down. I will try not to make it harder for my queen. As it is, the news about Sulan had struck me the same way. When I heard from Maddox an anger boiled in my heart like before. It has been so long since I felt this way. But I controlled myself, remembering what happened when my emotions are shaken in such way. I don’t want to turn into a monster again. And all of this was my fault. He wanted me. Zeus wanted to take me and they refused to give me up. Not that I wanted them to simply abandon me, but sometimes I think about it. Then I think of Amir. I don’t know what would happen if he took me, but if he took my life I don’t know what would be of him.
Isola invited me to come in and I did, walking in slowly and lowering my head as she apologized.
“Isola, no! Please… There is no need to apologize for anything. Nothing of this has been your fault. If anything it is mine.”
I decided not to tell her about my thoughts of giving myself to him. It… It was not the most important thing at the moment. She rose to her paws and touched her muzzle to mine in greeting before stepping back and looking at me. One loving greeting I adored. Well… I guess it was only a thing I never had in the packs I had been in.
My head shook from side to side “He carried me through the lands when I fell and perhaps he was the one who suffered most with the attack.” I told her, sitting myself “I know he is a sensitive wolf and... Zeus knew Amir’s father. I didn’t know it before. But just looking at Amir he recognized and spoke of him. He was one of Zeus’ warriors apparently and one of the best. He kept talking and attacking and this shook Amir. He couldn’t even attack Zeus, he wanted to hear everything even hurting him in such way.”
I whimpered softly in worry.
“And when we managed to chase him away, Amir was… Strange. He was angry. Very angry and it is not a good thing for him. He is not that kind of wolf. I’m worried he might do something stupid… He is training near the borders and he can’t even stand right! After… We started again and became the same we were before…. Before I turned into a monster.”
I lowered my ears, looking at her and hoping she would understand. I allowed her to speak, letting her give her thoughts upon the matter.
“I’m telling you this because I am worried about him. Please… If he tries to do anything stupid, don’t allow him. He respects you and really likes you. He would listen to you for sure.” I asked of her.
He is a good wolf. I could not let anything happen to him. But he would go after Zeus I am sure. With now Zeus his only bridge to know of his father. He would do anything to know more. He would give anything to know if his father is alive somewhere.
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