I KNOW he makes her happy but that doesn’t mean it makes ME happy.

Selfish I know. I know he does, I do I have been fighting with myself for days since word got to me they were mates. I try not to be as angry now, really what right do I have? They are mates and imprints and I just have well Solara now. What we were has yet to really be seen but I don’t have high hopes given my past luck with her and Iophiel. My soul was broken and rended for the first time in a long time I feel somewhat whole and normal and perhaps it was that that kept me from being so far up in Haven’s business that something could happen. Didnd’t mean she still tried to keep her distance from me when it came to her ‘friend’. But My suspicions were clear when they had became mates that they were certainly more than just friends before. Friends my hind end. I knew it the day I stumbled upon them in that den they were more than ‘friends’ and now I fear every single bush and thicket in Spirane has become their playground! Sometimes I fear while I am out it even my own den! Oh god please no, least give me that area of sanctuary….

I rolled my shoulders as I start making my way back up the moutanin. I had spent a bit of time with Solara in Diveen before coming back home. I needed a break from baby sitting and constantly trying to protect the sanctity of the landscape of Spirane from Haven and Hollowpoint’s misdeeds. Plus if Daenerys says ‘it makes her happy’ so be it. Who am I to say no to my Queen and sister? So I gave them ‘space’ and proceeded to leave since my duty wasn’t appreciated. I am still livid, what father wouldn’t be? I understand everything all of Daenery’s points that she is an adult and happy and please forgive me sister but blah, blah, blah. I know what comes from this and it will not go well with those two as parents. Perhaps she doesn’t see the childish nature of Haven as potentially a problem as I do. What is more is that Hallowpoint is a kindred spirit. Perfect for her truly but Father material?… No.

I go I suppose to talk to her about such things. Walking up the mountain following the scent trail of the male knowing that not far away my sister would be in toe. He should… bathe a little more often I think… as I follow him. He left a perfect trail and I swear I can smell other things amongst his own musk. I however move silently so my scent nor the sound of my paws can alert him. I know he will bring me right to her. And soon my suspicions were correct as I hear her voice carry with her scent.

I do not mean to eaves drop truly. I was not hiding in the brushes simply listening in. I was making my way towards them still when I heard her say she needed to tell “Hollow” she called him something and it wasn’t in her usual tones. It is perhaps this that my stomach wretches in me that I feel suddenly sick to my own stomach as if my worst fear was going to be confirmed and of course after a few seconds of me standing frozen as if she was telling me the news herself she said it. I stood frozen and flabbergasted, I felt a cold pit in my stomach not the warmth and excitement most would feel when given such news.

Should I…. leave? Wait for her to tell me upon her own volition? I feel almost bad for over hearing her, but it only makes me feel worse to hear her say it in such a way. Scared… worried. It was that that brought me forward before that fool could screw this up further. I feel rage and anger burn but to know she was scared over powered any hell fire that would have poured upon that soul of hers. I move up the path so that I am visible but I stop watching her lean into him, his back too me currently. I would wait to see how he would respond first before I impose myself further. My face was not angry, yet at least, I looked concerned more than anything but one wrong move from the would be father and that could change as fast as a lightning strike.

Oh Haven… I tried to stop this… I did. It was all I could think but I needed to be encouraging… females got pregnant all the time… and she wasn’t alone I wouldn’t let her be.