Sometimes, I would wake up in the middle of a quite night and wonder if she was wishing me by her side, that her very self was calling me towards her, and yet I would not follow these notions, thinking that I only invent them with my own desires to ensure she is comforted. Maybe I had been wrong on those nights as I stand here on this cold day, more assured in our bond than it has ever been before.
I know she is not completely pleased with the fact that I present her about Raven. I know she had gone searching for her, and come out with nothing at paw. I know how hard it is. I had searched for my mother, my sisters, and I had to wait for them to come back to me. That is simply how it is sometimes, and I understand that it is a hard thing to swallow. I understand this, and she does even turn her attentions to comfort me with this fact as well. It does lead a smile to swell upon my lips.
But I am not to stay silent long. I had so much to say in so little words, and I stood hopeful before her that she would accept me and my love that will not shiver before her. It is her choice and her decision. I have let it all up to her, but at the same time allowed her to know exactly how I fell. I think it has been enough time, that it is not some sort of puppy love or fleeting fascination. I know that there is no other that can hold my heart like she does, and the moon and sun themselves cannot tear that away from her.
Her reaction seems a bit surprised, and it only draws my ears forward where as it had drawn her back. I took an instinctive step forward,but there is nothing but silence met to my ears. I swear that I can almost hear the sound of snow landing softly on my fur in these moments as I look into her eyes with my own of lavender and blue, and ocean of colors. I do pressure with more words. If she wishes to speak, then she will speak. If she wishes to keep me in her silence forever, I shall listen with only eyes.
Yet she does give to speak, her own voice cracking in these moments but it hardly mattered. I lapped up every word greedily. My very soul sings and leaps within me. It is a thing that I would cherish over all others. My tail is high in the wag that it gives behind me. She even states that she wants me besides her, and I cannot resist the whine of joy that lingers in my throat unwillingly.
"Do not be sorry, life flows as it does, what is important is that we are here now," I say with a toothy grin. She then speaks of how I would be Emperor besides her, a ruler, and I find my own ears pressing back against my grey and red fur. I...honestly had not even considered that fact. I never thought of ruling really. I knew it may had been an option for me with Glorall, but I hated the tension it brought between siblings. I am in a bit of shock at this prospect, and the fact that my love was reciprocated. I accepted her touch though, the tension of the situation fading the warmth of her lick upon my cheek.
"I will be by your side as long as you will have me, I just...I just did not consider being an Emperor, but I will...I will do the best I can- for you," I say as I move my muzzle to lick her forehead gently. "Just say the word and see it done, as your Emperor, as your imprint, and as your love," I say with my gentle voice, propped up with confidence due to the fact that I know she may just feel the same way that I do. If only my parents could see me now, and enjoy in the fact that their children prosper. I hope that one day, I will actually be around to have my children succeed more than I do. The thought of such children does rattle the spine a bit- as I am not sure if I will breach the subject with her quite yet, but a family of my own is something...I have always wanted. |