Heaven Help Me

Dreams of darkness clouded my mind, a passionate anger the likes of which I had never felt causing me to wake in the middle of the night. I felt disturbed by the nightmare that had gripped me, though its content was muddled at best. What could have caused such a thing to crop up in my mind, especially after having found out yesterday that both Namira and I had been awarded the promotion to Dream Catchers? Something just felt wrong in the pit of my stomach, and I pulled myself from my den. Perhaps a nighttime walk in the warm summer moonlight would help settle my restless mind, and I could get back to sleep. I moved without haste, walking amongst the sentinels that towered overhead. Moonlight streamed through the canopy, illuminating the path that I followed absent mindedly.

At first I did not recognize the heaviness in my chest as I continued through the forest, unknowingly being drawn towards the edges of the pack by the very source of such a sensation. But the closer I got to the borders of Taviora the more strongly I felt that familiar heaviness in my chest - that heaviness that came with a feather light sensation. The juxtaposition of two such feelings finally made me realize the cause, and my head lifted slightly higher, ears perking forward. Leafshadow? I had not seen her in many moons, and part of me had thought that I'd made some kind of fool of myself when we'd first met. Chased her off with my strange accent and lack of knowledge about this imprinting business that we were connected by. I'd felt her absence strongly, missing her even though we barely knew one another.

Pausing upon the trail that I followed, I listened carefully before turning my head to the left to see her golden brown form emerging from a connecting path that ran along the borders of our home. Automatically my tail waved back and forth, pleased to see her. Almost immediately I felt a drop in the pit of my stomach; what if I hadn't seen her in so long because she didn't want to see me? My tail stilled, threatening to tuck between my legs but instead simply hanging dormant. "Good evening, Leafshadow," I said courteously, staring at her for a moment before I realized myself and averted my eyes, looking up into the trees where the moonlight streamed through. "Beautiful night, is'n'it?" It was an absent minded statement, to fill the silence, but I wasn't really sure what else to say. Was her presence here what had drawn me out of my den in the middle of the night? I still wasn't really sure how this whole imprinting thing worked, but I knew one thing - I wanted Leafshadow to feel happiness, and for some reason I could sense that that wasn't what she was feeling this evening.

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