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Posted on December 12, 2015 at 07:57:40 AM by Solaris
 My mind wanders, perhaps guided by her own to an extent though I should hardly have known it, my thoughts drifting about in these moments to the impossibilities of the situation that existed before us. I could never truly be with her, that much I knew, nor she with me. Her heart was already held by another, a cousin my own blood, her children my second cousins in return and indeed in so many ways this makes her family- and I have already hurt my family beyond all imagined grief. She cannot be mine and I cannot be hers and yet still I am doomed to an existence by which I may forever watch over her all the same. Zaphkiel can hardly deny me that and perhaps nor can Siren. Maybe she is not my mate, maybe I do not hold a title of sorts over her and yet Siren and I have lived as one for…some years now. I think of her as my own even if I have no right too in truth and yet I should not like to displease her as Astrid surely does not seek to displease Zaphkiel and as such it can never be- though it does not stop my mind in its wanderings. What would it be, truly, to be with an imprint, to have her birth my children and lay beside her at night? Would this tranquillity of soul exist eternally? Or am I merely so content because we have been parted for so long? My family, Angels, for many years have become famed for the rejection of their imprints, refusing to allow fate to dictate such things until those such as my own brother, Achilles, were born without the ability to imprint at all- there are many Angels with such a fate as Heyel had dictated and yet I wonder truly how so many can turn so easily from imprints. There is much to be said of the Angel breed perhaps and yet….strength of character cannot be denied, on this I am assured. A great advantage and disadvantage all at once I should think. I allow my thoughts to wander away now, taken with her presence alone now as the fine curve of my head moves to watch her with the violet blue opalescence of my gaze. Had I known of her thoughts on Angels I may well have spoken of what I knew of them, sought to change her opinion in some way perhaps, though surely her opinion could not be too poor if she was mated to one and a truly pure one at that. My thoughts shifted once more as I asked after her children and my second cousins. I am ashamed to admit that I did not truly…..care so much for her children beyond that as any stranger might ask, I simply desired to hear her voice, ears pricked forward to capture each lyric as she offered it- some part of me finding myself pleased that her children were well- if only because it pleased her in turn. How odd I should be so affected. A smile of sorts lifts upon my lips as she speaks of her adventurous children and off their inherited spirit, head nodding softly at such information before I sought fit to offer my own words now. “Indeed. Cousin Zaphkiel was as Uncle Azrael before him- adventurous, or so my own Mother tells me. Angel blood does not flow quietly, perhaps this is the reason for- ah.” I paused, briefly, catching myself before I moved to speak to far- assured such things were not of my right to speak of and indeed that Astrid surely did not care to hear it all the same. Zaphkiel, surely, spoke of family enough and I should not seek to bore her. “I say too much, forgive me, I babble. I am well. I enjoy the spring when it comes, I like to see the young pups. I should like to have some of my own one day perhaps.” It seemed an easy thing to speak of and yet it was something I never spoke of- her presence alone seeming to draw such inwards thoughts from myself in a manner I found alarming as she seated herself beside me and some part of myself grew elated at this closeness though I pressed for nothing closer as of yet. The matter of our first meeting was quickly dismissed and I was glad of it, her thoughts on Zaphkiel seeing my eyes rise slightly as she spoke of bears and cougars. I have never been…good at sarcasm and if it was desired to be sarcastic it was lost upon me. “Why should he chase a bear? That is a fools ploy.” My tail flicked in some dissatisfaction, features frowning curiously before I dismissed it although why Zaphkiel should go about chasing predators five times his size I hardly know, my attention drawn by Astrid now as she asked after my Siren, surprise lingering that she should know of her. Perhaps our minds were more connected then I knew. “Yes, she has lived with me for a long time now, she has good days and bad but nothing that cannot be handled. When you….care for someone you will do what you must for them and it pleases me to see her happy, so I work to achieve that. We are rarely apart, she is sleeping now though, I will be sure to return before she wakes. Has Zaphkiel taken you to Diveen?” 41in, 185lbs || Kane x Isola || Brother of Achilles, Solara, Forfax, Haziel, Seraphina, Shiloh, Hadrian, Phaedra, Calliel, Arkane || Peacekeeper of Taviora |
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