Ever since they had been here, the yearling’s life had gotten worse. It turned out that her father couldn’t care less about her existence, and that her mother now couldn’t stand her father, the one they had followed for such a long time. For Amber, this sort of inconclusive activity seemed pointless, but that wasn’t the worst of it. Her mother, who had once cared so much for the filly, now barely spoke to her. She had to learn things for herself, not that she minded, it was just rather frustrating to go from being the most precious thing in someone’s life to just more than nothing in a matter of weeks, and become less than that by the day. It was a miracle she even acknowledged her by name these days.
Amber and her mother’s conversations used to be so much longer, they used to be together more. After whatever happened between her mother and father, her mother started communicating with her less and less, and didn’t care when she wandered far. In fact, she barely seemed concerned anymore with anything. Amber had been in the forest, in a little area surrounded by trees and covered in shade, a great relief from the dry summer air, where her mother could usually be found. The pale gold and white girl with a bronze gem on her head had been talking (if it could even be called that anymore) with her mother.
“Hey,” She said. It was greeted by a flick of gilded ears amongst chocolate mane, and then silence. “I said hi… you know, for caring so much about this ‘being polite’ thing, you don’t often greet me in return anymore, mother.” Kaoessa replied with more silence, though she did turn her head and her eyes were slightly narrowed. The yearling girl was walking on thin ice, but her mother was showing something.
“So, you gonna say something…? Or just have one of these silent conversations of yours?” The mare then spoke, simply, but it was something. “Get out of my life.” A little harsh, but Alaskan Amber was her child, it wasn’t like she could simply walk out of her life, and frankly, it was a little disheartening that her mother couldn’t see that logically. Amber said nothing, and allowed her mother a chance to think about her words, to see how little sense it made, but her mother’s ears pinned back, and she bared her teeth, before stating one last time. “You heard me, Alaskan Amber. Go away. Get out of my life.”
“You know what, you’re right. I don’t deserve this. I don’t need you anyway, and I don’t think I’m the first to think so.” She spat this. Normally she wouldn’t say these sorts of things to her mother, but things had changed drastically. She didn’t need her anymore, she wasn’t a foal, and she didn’t need her to be like this. She knew she was only a yearling, but her mind was beyond that. She was upset that her mother wanted her gone, and decided that if she wanted her gone, then she would just disappear from her sight. It would be best for both of them, as much as the filly wanted the old days back, it simply wasn’t going to happen.
She had to stop wishing, and just accept it. Her mother took in these words, and once she comprehended that Amber was talking about her father, Alaskan Amber was already dashing through the trees with her long, athletic legs. Her mother may be built for running as well, but she hadn’t traversed the valley as much as Amber had, though she had never found any of the residents, she decided that was going to change today, alongside her newfound freedom. After all, she would need someone to help her learn how to protect herself.
She enjoyed the exhilaration that came with running, that came with feeling danger and knowing she was right and had won, once and for all. Yes, she was a bit of an adrenaline junky, but then again, it just felt so good to win, to be right. After all, she was smart beyond her years, and wasn’t one to hide this fact. She observed, she processed, and, if wished, she could spit out quite the insults to others she knew well. Well, even though her mother had been a bit of an enigma to her all her life, she did know that she was very sensitive when it came to the girl’s father, and she shouldn’t have said anything, but at the same time, she had put up with this cruel treatment for too long. She could barely tolerate the woman, much less live in close quarters with her for long periods of time.
It was early afternoon by the time she emerged from the forest, and she continued cantering, letting out a whinny to let everyone know that starting today, Alaskan Amber would not put up with ill treatment from anyone. She smiled, starting today, she would be her own equine, she would live her own life, and wouldn’t let anyone hold her down anymore. Of course, making friends was something she wanted to do, she liked being around others, and she wouldn’t let anyone stop her. Of course, there was an instinct deep down that told her that maybe she burned a bridge with her mother a little too early. The yearling Arabian/Lusitano cross did need someone to help her learn how to fend for herself, but once a decision like this was made, there was no going back. Here started a new chapter, here started Alaskan Amber, the girl who wouldn’t take Hell from anyone.