I am sadden at what I must do. No longer can I remain in Iromar. I must break my Mother’s promise and it pains me to do so. Mother promised my soul to serve Iromar. I have always served it patiently and kindly. I was the youngest wolf to ever achieve such a lofty position, Diplomat. I served to show that Iromar wasn’t a land full of Demons. I helped spread word fast that we were a pack that was capable of good things and befriending others. Yet now I am not sure I can do such a thing. This new male and his mate haven’t been good. They are cruel. No longer can I remain. I must go. Besides, I must return to the land of my Mother. I must understand why she was the way she was. She told me she destroyed her pack and yet I know that someone must have survived, and if it, maybe neighboring packs know. It pains me to leave my love, but I must do this alone. After all I carry my Mother’s curse mark and I know that one day I will become the Monster she is. I always hate my own daughter, and that is enough to push me on this journey that I was cursed to be upon.

I tell him of my plan, but he convinces me to have him come. We will enjoy traveling together he says. I am sure we will. We sleep for the final time together here within this cozy den, that I have lived in all my life. I am surrounded by the beautiful feathers he has collected for me. I treasure each and every one of them. In the middle of the night I wake up. I had eased his concerns to have him travel with me, but I lied. I nuzzle him gently for the final time, my beautiful eyes sadden in this moment. I hate myself. I hate my daughter, and I am leaving behind the only wolf that ever loved me and I in return. Andras and Aithne were good Alphas, and I loved them in that respect but Starfall was different – he loved me for me. I loved him for him and that is all that matters. Yet I know I must go. As I leave his side I go to the corner and take out the sleek feather that belonged to my namesake. Gently I place it in front of him, a token of my love, a token of my apology. Sadly I move away and leave him and Iromar. It feels weird to break a promise and to leave my love, but I know I must do this alone. I have no time to say goodbye to Mother or even tell her what I am doing, for she would tell me no. I have no time to see the child I hate say an obligatory farewell. I wish to say goodbye to my dear friend Eden, but I know I do not have time. I hate for them to see the Monster I was slowly descending into becoming. Most of all, I hate myself for breaking Starfalls heart and letting him see the Monster that I will be, nothing else that I will ever do in my life will be as wrong as leaving him.