I was a queen once.

I remember it like it was yesterday because deep in my soul, she remembers it as if it were yesterday. He speaks to me, words i cannot understand nor hear. But i can feel the emotion falling off of him in waves, the fire, the passion. But it is forbidden, his rank unbefitting my own and therefor it cannot be. I have to be strong, i am a queen, he, a mere knight. He has lost his self control around me, as a queen i cannot afford such a thing as this. He will ruin me, this love will ruin me. Little did i know the decision i make after tonight would ruin me. But i had to do it “at dawn.” i can see the surprise in his light eyes, the fear and confusion but most of all i can see the heartbreak for it mirrors my own. I turn from him, ignoring his cries and disappearing into the night. Tomorrow morning, my love will be killed when i allow the words to fall.

I blink, eyes opening against the dimly lit world around me. The stones are quiet, the liquid falling from the cave mouth and landing softly, almost music to my ears. I sigh, breath slow and even. These memories became more like nightmares to me, feeling all too real and giving me pains i never knew i could feel. I attempt to quiet my thoughts but they run rampant, threatening to break free from my grasp and cause tears to flow. No, i was given this life for a reason, what i shall do with it i will never know. For now, perhaps learn through the ways of the old soul that sits so foreignly inside me.

A sound disturbs my inner chaos and my ears perk, head rising delicately from my paws. It is dark out there, the clouds blocking the stars i have grown to love so very much. But i can smell him, his comforting musk yet strange ways. A queen is never fearful but i have my weak moments. His aroma calms me, and i inhale lightly, ears falling upon my small head as they always do in his company. How modest i become when i am with him, how shy. “orb?” i call gently, my light lyrics sounding so very loud against the quiet stones. I will wait here for him, he will come to me.