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Posted on September 23, 2017 at 09:53:04 AM by TARQUiN
It would be best if they learned who they were in situations that they did not have to feel confined; that much was true. Quinn felt like he wasn't sure who Echidna was anymore, which was one of the most confusing things to deal with, considering all that they had been through already. Yet it was no less a true feeling that he had, and it only intensified with what he had learned here tonight. But he remembers the friendship they had in the very beginning, and it had been good for him, to have that. Maybe it was his fault, maybe he shouldn't have messed that up, shouldn't have complicated it. Shouldn't have wanted so much from her. Or at least kept it to himself when he had. Of course that wasn't the way Quinn worked. He didn't like to keep what he wanted to himself. Echidna had complicated his view on a few different things regarding, well, his romantic preferences, maybe? It was hard to tell what it actually affected, honestly.
There were no others that were anything close to the situation with Echidna for Quinn to really try to figure any of it out further, so it was an odd mystery to him. He had to re-assess what he was in that sense, and it had never gotten easier for him. He pretty much couldn't stand most minds stuck within female bodies -- and even thinking of it like that messes with his head because it doesn't add up in this situation to him -- and he doesn't exactly know what something like this opens up in him with all that. He was very clear in the fact that he was homosexual, but when it came to romantic feelings, Quinn was semi-confused. He had always chalked it up to something so different about Echidna, and he still did. And yet things come into question when he isn't sure who she is anymore. Maybe he doesn't know who he really is at this point either, but he was trying to figure it all out. And this renewed friendship could help with both those things.
Quinn did not have very good luck when it came to friends. He had tried it a few different times, but the only time it had worked out was with Echidna, and he had gone and thrown a wrench into that one. Too many times when he had attempted friendships; they saw him for who he really was and they turned against him. Sometimes terribly, and sometimes in ways that were bad in another sense. He doesn't really know what it was like to have a real friend that was okay with who he was, and he doesn't like to think about that fact. It bothers him, and it's worse to think of how much he needed someone there to talk to when things needed to be said. When he needed to say things that he didn't think he could say to anyone he had otherwise been bound to. Quinn wonders if it would be different to talk to Echidna as a friend, wonders if he could speak more freely that way. Or at least feel like he could if he needed to. He hoped so.
She was saying it was settled then, giving him a gentle smile and then she was scooting closer and holding out her hand with her pinky finger extended. This made him raise his eyebrows somewhat, but it was also charming in an offhand way. The gesture and her words about it. He nods, and smiles, reaches out to link his pinky with hers when she speaks again. Sometimes do the no pants dance. He grins back at her, feeling a warmth in his chest. "To being friends and there for each other. And the no pants dance." He responded with a little chuckle. Does he know what he feels about all of this? Somewhat. And he knows it's sparked something up within him. He's glad to have a friend, have someone that he could talk to. He knows that he needs that, and Echidna could always make him think on a deeper level. He did a lot of realizing about himself when around her, too. It was the oddest thing, but it meant that this friendship could work out.
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- because the dark gets me - By Echidna September 24, 2017 at 07:53:59 AM
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