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everyone I RP with (chaos, alison, vinyl, pirate, lagoonies) Posted on October 26, 2017 at 01:17:01 PM by Shiva
(Wow this got long sorry in advance)
So I'm sure those of you who RP with me have noticed that I've been very slow with my replies for a while now. You've all been so patient, and I love you for that, but it's not fair for me to continually keep people waiting 2 weeks for a reply. Besides, constantly owing a mountain of replies is really affecting my muse, which in turn makes me want to post even less, which keeps you waiting even longer. It's a vicious cycle that isn't fair on anyone involved.
The reasons for my slowness are only partly due to a lack of muse, however. I'm trying to be more responsible about how I spend my time IRL, and am trying to spend the daylight hours during the week actually getting shit done like working and cleaning and running errands, which just leaves me the evenings and weekends to post. The thing is, in the evenings I am usually exhausted and don't have the mental energy to write, and on the weekends I usually want to do anything but write. It doesn't help that my health has not been great recently; I'm in the middle of trying to find medication that actually helps my anxiety and depression, and it's been a rough ride.
Don't worry, I'm not leaving you guys! I have too many juicy plots planned, and I don't want to abandon those. However, for the longest time (since even before TLI closed and reopened) I have been meaning to cut my characters down even more than they are now, and due to my total lack of self-control I'm just not succeeding at that. So I think I need to be a little tougher on myself, admit when my post load just isn't working for me, and actually make a few sacrifices.
For starters, I'm going to retire Lunero for now. I absolutely love him and fully intend on rejoining him some day to play out the plans I had for him, but he has zero ties on TLI and is in only one thread, so there's no reason I should be keeping him around above any of the others. Chaos, I was planning on tying up our thread with my reply - let me know if you still want me to do that, or if you're happy leaving it where it is.
Secondly, I think Brienne will going too, albeit not right away. My intention when I rejoined her was to just give her a last chance at happiness before she died, and now that she's had that, I don't really have any idea of what else I could do with her, and my muse for her is starting to suffer a bit as a result. Plus, I think her death would help spur my plans with Alison's boy to be attached at the hip with Brienne's daughter Everglow - without Brienne there, it makes sense that the two would become totally inseparable. However, I wouldn't want to kill her off without giving her one last hurrah. Vinyl, I know Shamwari will be devastated when she dies, so I want to give them a bit more time together. I'm considering having her die in childbirth next foaling season, because I could totally see her passing away doing something to make Shamwari happy. Whether the foal lives or not I guess would depend on whether you or anyone else was interested in playing it. Much as I would love to take it on, I think it would kind of defeat the purpose of me cutting down on characters lol.
The other character I may retire for a while is Argento, because I have always struggled with writing him. The only things making me hesitant to do so are the fact that he's the current Boss of the Lagoon and that Pirate and I have plans for him to get involved in the Bay's drama. Therefore what I might do is keep him around for the time being, but keep his post load low, and if I see an IC opportunity for him to make an exit, I may take advantage of it.
Everyone else is safe for the time being.
Again, thank you to everyone who has been patient with me during my constant struggle with my post load, and sorry for this rambly mess of a post - it was as much me working out my own thoughts as it was laying them all out for you guys. Maybe one day I'll achieve my goal of having fewer than five characters... Maybe one day...