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Posted on January 26, 2018 at 11:35:49 PM by Paxton
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He had just been to see his mother's grave and he was in a contemplative mood today. He wondered if he would always remember his mother's face the way she was after his eyes opened. She was sickly and weak, having never fully recovered from giving birth to him and his siblings. Then she just....wasn't alive anymore. It still stung to think about and he felt unshed tears pricking the back of his eyes. But with a small growl, he shook the emotions away. No, he was done crying. It was done. His father had done everything he could to convince Paxton and his siblings that it wasn't their fault. That it was just her time. But Paxton couldn't help thinking that it wasn't coincidence. Maybe if she hadn't given birth to them, she would be fine, still here with Jinan. His father would never be the same and Paxton silently took the blame on that. He didn't voice his guilt, knowing his father would never let it go. He would keep arguing with them in that way only he could until they went silent. He didn't want them to have that burden but Paxton had already carried it this far and he wasn't planning on giving it up any time soon. He sighed as he walked beneath the safe canopy of the Taviora forest. He wondered if he would stay here with his father and his siblings or if some day he would travel to another pack and make a life for himself. There were too many memories here, memories of his mother and the life they could have had. He knew his mother loved them. He could feel it even as a young newborn with his eyes still closed. Somehow it just radiated off of her. Now he was left one parent short and he really didn't know how much longer his father would go on without her. It was like he was half a wolf without her. When she was alive, he was always worried for her but he was determined that she would get better. He brought her herbs and food and made sure she was comfortable. When she was gone, it was like part of Jinan went with her. Paxton didn't fully understand how all that worked but it bothered him to no end. It was too painful for his father to talk about so he didn't push him. Instead he figured he would ask his aunt Tuari about it. She had been watching over him and his siblings a lot since their mother was gone. It was like she took it on herself to be their second mother. She would never replace Paisley, but she was nice. He was told she couldn't speak, that she was what they call mute. It's not like he would know the difference. Everything was silence to him all the time. His father had been working with him on reading lips. He wasn't anywhere near being a pro on it but he was getting pretty good, or so he told himself. Sometimes he had to tell someone to slow down a little and try again but no one seemed to mind. He was walking along when he saw movement. He paused instantly, turning his head toward it since there was no sense in swiveling his ears in that direction. His tail stood up, ready to wag as his eyes searched the forest. Then he saw it again. It was another wolf. He'd never met her before but then then he hadn't met a lot of his pack mates yet. He smiled and wagged his tail. Today, that was going to change. He trotted right over to her, somehow sure she would know he was coming. "Hello! Who are you?" His voice was a little higher in pitch than normal but his eyes were bright and open and his smile was friendly. His tail wagged behind him and everything in his body language pointed toward friend. Paxton male.1 year old.36' 135#.born to Paisley x Jinan.brother to Mouse & Seke.bound to none.mated to none.father to none.Taviora Background @ CathleenTarawhiti (Deviantart) |
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- tell me it's tomorrow now - By sidriel January 29, 2018 at 05:10:50 PM
exchanging names - By Paxton January 30, 2018 at 02:35:31 AM
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