I AM SPINNING IN INFINITY

The woman hunched her shoulders against the wind and rain, giving the stranger a hollow look. Her ears flicked forward to catch the words, and she breathed a sigh of relief, seeming to relax for a moment. There was a frenzied sort of wildness to the woman, her violet eyes sharp and piercing, her body language akin to a cornered animal. "Yes, let's... investigate." She waited for the other woman to pass her, gaze remaining upon her at all times before she, too began to walk further up the beach. Ehiyeh looked around, surveying the destruction, mourning the loss of what once was beautiful and collected. The chaos surrounding her seemed to echo the thoughts in her head, swirling and scattered.

She walked behind the stranger, tucked in behind her tail, looking almost as devastated as the world around them. Her thoughts seemed to cycle between relief and guilt as she scanned the debris, looking for any sign of the death of anything other than a gull or a fish. How could she live with herself if her own darkness had claimed Elohim or Adonai or even Eden? It was her sole burden to bear, however heavy it became. It was her darkness and her pain, her loss and her own regret. No one else deserved to take it upon themselves-- not her mysterious imprint, nor her brother or her children. They were innocent of it, and up until now, she had kept it locked inside of herself. Ehiyeh closed her eyes for a moment, urging her frantic heart to return to its normal rhythms.

The stranger's question brought her back to reality for a moment. Her violet eyes were calmer as she looked towards the younger woman, raising her head just slightly. "My brother and my daughter." She answered, letting out a deep, rattling breath. "This is all my fault. I kept it hidden for too long, too long... the darkness came to take what it is owed, but I cannot give it what it wants. I will drown myself in the ocean, and it can take me or nothing at all." Ehiyeh very nearly spat the words.

The agitated ocean, the disturbed sand, it was a mockery of how she felt inside. The darkness sought to tear her away from what she knew, and take away her tethers to the world. It only came to destroy. It had hovered over her like a terrible thundercloud for too long of a time, and it had grown restless. While her daughter thought the ocean held the secrets of wolves, Ehiyeh knew that it did not. The ocean only held darkness, hidden just beneath its murky waves, turgid and turbulent with the weight of evil deeds.

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