I had tried my hardest, who knew those little sleepy forest wolves had so much… fight. I had tore into her good. Ripped at her flesh, and I quickly found out why she was bound to my angel, my love. She was strong, she had grabbed at my vitals and tried to tear but I was faster than her, more skilled in the ways of battle, though she was no slouch. But I had failed… I could feel the anger boil in me, the bloodlust and it was hard to tell if it was my own. For so long I denied him, our bond and feelings between us and still I do, but since that day it was as if I KNEW he had found out. He was hunting me. I didn’t know why, I had no idea of the relations my soul had with her, only those of my love the father of my children. He was MINE. I could take him being gone no longer, take him shadowing her being away from us OUR children. I had lied to Juno countless times about how we were heart and soul yet he was always gone chasing her!

I cried in frustration that SHE had this thing over him that i wanted so horribly. Why couldn’t it have been him instead of Eden? Why! So I tried to be rid of her forever. I was done being second best, without her I would be his one and only as we should have been. Demented in my twisted desires I tried to kill her only to be foiled. I was still wounded, bleeding, but I knew I was being hunted now, just not that my heart was also hunting me and only the feeling in the back of my mind that my Soul was. I never been wounded so, part of me wonders if it is for good but I remember that he devoured the affliction that had been my blind eye and know that he is coming to consume me now that my whole body is weak. At least… that was what I convinced myself of. I stashed myself down in the grotto, so close yet so far from my children, my love. I wanted them but I could not have any of them I felt broken, but I still wanted HER dead. That was not leaving me.

Darkness had become my friend down here. I feasted on the vermin I could find shoved my body into the mosses to hope that it would soak up and stem my blood but still I was so weak… I was lucky to have not died, she cut the inner part of my thigh deeply and that wound beyond all the others still worried me. I could not use the leg properly yet. My sinful wish of mine had come back and destroyed me. I just… couldn't sit back anymore and watch it. I feel dead inside, so defeated and perhaps it shows today as I lay on a mossy patch, dead eyes staring at the dark stone wall, a dipping sound in the distance. It was raining today. It always dripped like this when it rained.

I wanted Juno. I wanted Aeon. I wanted my Angel, Valefor. I didn’t want to be away from them anymore. I just wanted them all to myself, they were mine after all, why was that so terrible?