It is instinct that drives me, but who is to say my instinct is normal? I do what I must do, as it must be done. I must take care of my pups even if I think some of them are no good. It just is what it is, and one day they will leave me. They will leave me and I will be okay again. Okay to try and bring my Roamin back, so I can go back to way things were, so I can feel happy again.

One day. But today, was just another day, and Dirk had visited. A place he should not be, but he is here. He is here so I will let him be here unless the snake arrives. He says that I named Obsidian well, but I didn’t name him at all. No. It was not me, and my face pulls back and shakes in a no.

”No, no, no, I did not name him, no, he was already named, Obsidian and Ruby, named themselves, before they were born. They are here and they are HERE,” I say as I lean in slightly to Dirk, my yellow eyes wide, indicating somewhat that they are indeed in my head. Obsidian’s own face simply wrinkles at the male coming down to his level. It was odd to the boy. Siren never went down on their level. Never. He didn’t know what to do other than push his face forward more, with his little teeth showing for just a moment.

”Obsidian is Death, he...will kill me,” I say as I look down upon them both. ”He tells me who to kill. He is why Lilith is dead,” I say with my yellow eyes reflecting the fear that I have towards Obsidian. It is as if I am being held captive by the puppy. I need to care for him, but only just enough. Obsidian grins at Siren’s words and repeats, “Lilith is dead!” with great excitement, wishing his sister Ruby was here to join in on the fun.

I close my eyes as Lilith, in my head, scolds me, telling me that I am the one that killed her...that it was all me. That she is proud of me for doing it. I growl as I shake my head. ”No, not me, not me,” I say as I shake her off and look to Dirk.

”Don’t get close to him,” I say, taking my paw and pushing on Dirk’s shoulder. ”No good,” I say, moving to try and step in between them. It is not safe for Dirk here...I had remembered the snakes, but I had forgotten the death. Obsidian then laughs and howls out, “Lilith is dead! Dead dead dead!” which only brings a frown to my face.



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