ELBarba: love or hate me Iím BACK Posted on September 18, 2019 at 06:37:52 PM by ELbarba
just wanted to take theopportunity to address this Jai Alai community directly before I make my return today.
Despite my extended time off my shoulder still has not made a full recovery.
But I am happy to be back and will take this opportunity to give it a try and begin play.
I have played through injuries before so this wonít be my first time attempting to play
Less then 100% healthy. But rest assure I will give my BEST EFFORT according to my
Skills, decision making and physical ability that have come with appx. 20 months participating in
This sport. (AS I HAVE ALWAYS DONE). If u have followed my journey playing at MC...u know I
Play wearing my emotions on my sleeves. Some love it...others hate it. For me it has been a blessing and a curse.
Sometime my emotions help me play better by throwing harder or getting to balls seemingly impossible to reach.
Other times my high intensity emotions have gotten in my way of focus and good decision making. Sometimes
I have ďslumpedĒ or ďchokedĒ as Iíve made bad plays or throws. I can get really critical of myself and gets very discouraged
About my play and loose confidence sometimes. Some have mistakenly taken my LACK of emotion display at various times that Iím not trying or giving my best effort or in some case actually ďthrowingĒ points on purpose. These accusations and assumptions are to say the least reckless and
Narrow minded given my experience and skill level at this point. Many, many, manyyyy throws or decisions made by us players at MC would look suspicious if we had 10-20 years of professional experience like the players at Dania or Miami casino. But we donít have that experience...I often question myself on some of the shit I do. Iím like..Ē.wtf did I just do!!!Ē But it is what it is...Iím not a dog or a horse...I play with emotion and emotion effects my play...for better or for worse. Sometimes all I can do to NOT get fined for throwing my helmet or cussing on the court is to simply turn around after a bad play and walk off the court...emotionless....cause Iím about to explode and Iím literally doing everything I can to control my emotions. With that being said...I will suspend my emotions for the rest of the month...no matter if I win or loose. So there it is....a nice little summary of how Iím feeling right now. Concerning the events that took place on the evening of 9/4....I have read a lot of the comments in the various threads and may address some of those issues/concerns in a near future post. Weíll see. ✌️