The sensations I was absorbed in were…strange. The little zappy sparks that felt like lightning rushing through my system, just being near him. What was this? I had never felt like this before, and I had no idea what it meant, or what to take away from it all. I wanted to learn more of it, because lets be honest, I’m not one to ignore things and let them go. I wanted to learn more and more each day, and if today I was learning about imprints and feelings, and who to fear. Well, then so be it.
I tipped my head to the side, watching him. Trying to ignore the gut feeling that kept telling me to go closer to him. Why? Why was my soul telling me to get closer? To reach out and touch him. It was all I could do to keep myself from doing what I was being told to. I had to resist, right? There was no reason to give in, not yet. It was strange, I knew the sensation of feeling dwarfed by others, my father had been a large bloke. He had made me feel safe, others, not so much. But Aspis. He made me feel safe, shrouded in a cloud that I couldn’t really explain in any way.
I don’t believe that his parents couldn’t get him out. My father would have given his life to save me, and a part of me felt as if any parent should do that. But then again, I’m speculating here, more than anything. My heart ached, thinking of him as a little pup, needing help, I want nothing more than to take that pain away.
He said they had tried, and the implication that it hadn’t worked was there, and my heart broke even more for the little boy he was back then. I couldn’t stop myself as my legs brought me closer to his form, not quite touching, but enough to feel the heat that radiated off of his body. But then he began to talk, saying he was sorry my family was gone, telling me to go back to Spirane. I shook my head, watching him as he began to pace.
He spoke of imprints, and how this man would use it to hurt me, just to hurt Aspis. I shook my head, no. “I can’t leave you. I won’t. I don’t care what he’ll do to me, I have no one left in my life, I’m not about to let him find you and make me lose you too. I can’t.” Where in the world had these feelings come from? I hadn’t ever told anyone anything like that, yet, here I am, defying Aspis, refusing to leave his side.
“I don't feel as if I belong in Spirane, I mean it's where I was born, but I know no one, and I don't like feeling that way. I thought if I could just, explore, I'd belong. I guess not.” Before I can stop myself, I find myself standing before him, my muzzle reaching out and pressing softly into his shoulder, hoping he won’t pull away or push me away. I don’t know if I can handle that. Not now anyway.