Posted on May 19, 2021 at 01:11:15 AM by M.o.n.s.t.e.r.
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She hated the idea of her son seeing her like this, of anyone seeing her like this. The idea of appearing weak made her want to vomit in her own mouth. When had she fallen so low? She knew she needed to be strong again for the herd, but for this one moment with her son, she figured she could drop her guards a little and cherish it. Zjeena deserved that much and more. She didn't want to push past it or brush it off, make her son think it was nothing. No, her best friend deserved more than that. She instead chose to talk about it with Loupgaru and offer him what she could since he never got to meet the cream mare. When he asked if she would come back, Monster smiled softly. "I can't say for sure but I hope so." It was honest and yet she wouldn't make a promise or guarantee when she was as in the dark as he was. Zjeena may never come back. She was coming to accept that fact, slowly but surely. When they spoke of him and the black cat, she liked seeing the pride gleam in her son's eyes. It suited him. She knew he would be strong and invincible some day soon and she couldn't wait to see it. But she also liked that he seemed humbled by the experience, like he was thinking back to what could have happened if that cat had come across someone else. He was understanding the danger of the situation and she could only see the positive of that. As Loupgaru grew silent, Monster let him take his time and absorb everything, knowing he would need these moments if he was to be the intelligent creature she knew all of her children were capable of. When he spoke to her again, she turned her gaze back to him, ears pricked at full attention. He asked again about Zjeena and she dipped her head in confirmation. "Yes, but it was so much more than that. She earned my respect long before she came to call Paradise her home. She was one of the first mares I sparred with and she held her own beautifully. She was a warrior through and through, yet her heart held so much potential. I came to trust her and look to her even while she called another place home and when your father met her, he must have seen the same things shining through because he was a goner in no time. She didn't have the easiest life on the islands before arriving here and yet while those experience would break a weaker mare, they only seemed to make her stronger. Zjeena was truly one of a kind and her memory will never be forgotten if I have anything to do with it." She hoped that gave Loupgaru some sort of closure for his curiosity, but even if he had more questions, she wouldn't hesitate to answer. Talking about Zjeena wasn't as painful as she thought it would be. If anything, it felt therapeutic. Monster_mare_8yo_American Paint Horse Mutt_14hh_grullo and white tobiano coat_white mane& black tail_one blue eye and one brown eye_mother to Medusa(xRougaru), Loupgaru(xRougaru), Zeru(adopted), Alpha (xRougaru)_bound to Rougaru_Atlantis Paradise |
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