Was this the right thing to do? God he did worry a lot. He remembered when they had first met that she said those with black fur were warriors, well worrier and warrior that was pretty close right? He shifted slightly on his paws, looking sheepishly over the girl for a moment knowing that she didn’t like to see him worry, really it wasn’t that he worried this time he just simply felt terrible for what he had done. Leaving without a word and tearing across Moladion. He would likely do it again too should Daenerys ever be challenged again. He would have to tell her, explain, if she didn’t already hear the rumors. Not many others knew of his relationship towards the Queen of Spirane, friends, imprints or otherwise. Most people knew but he tried to keep it quiet. Why? He didn’t know, perhaps it was Azrael’s fault for keeping Andromeda a secret for as long as he could. But if he wanted to be true to his real feelings that meant he had to confess to Yin and make her understand his rather delicate relationship between him and the Spirane Queen.
He had to set these thoughts aside, had to apologize for making the girl who always just seemed so happy and carefree finally worry, for him of all things. He knew she didn’t like some of the more dangerous plants he experimented with perhaps that made her worry too, but as a healer he needed to know how those poisons worked. At least, that was how he explained it. It wasn’t the point now though, she had thought he had gone out and got hurt as he embraced her and she readily accepted it he felt his body do a strange mixture of tenseness and ease. It started out nervous and unnatural but only after a few seconds he felt his own form ease into her own. Never would it bring the completeness that came with hugging his imprint, but the feeling of comfort and happiness that followed just wasn’t like what he felt with Danny. She made him happy but not like this, it was different, she might comfort his soul but never his heart.
He stood there for a moment enjoying the embrace they shared before pulling back slightly. Why did he worry? Well that answer was simple, ”Because I care… A lot.” He stated softly, ”I don’t want to lose the things I care about.” He elaborated before his nerves coiled up, knowing what he had to say, to finish saying sort of. Give more detail. He couldn’t bring himself to outright say it, and he chastised himself for it. Beating around the bush was not what he needed to do right now, for once in his life, with something that wasn’t healing, he needed to be direct and just say what he meant for a change. Still his answer instilled one he didn’t quite expect from the white and silver fem. He big pink eyes bright and a grin on her maw. Though still he wondered if she really understood what he was trying to say. Or was just trying to get a direct answer out of him?
He shifted slightly unsure as she replied pretty sure for a moment if she did get it she was doing a good job of forcing him to say exactly what he meant. This was torture if she was doing it on purpose. Why did females just have this way of poking buttons until they exploded? But she didn’t stop there, her gaze went to the sky and his followed for a moment taking in the clouds and the blue skies behind him but she spoke some more and for a change she was the one sounding nervous, though it wasn’t like his own. He looked back down only to see her gaze locked onto his own seeing something different there, confused maybe? He wasn’t sure what it was for someone who was so filled with emotions, granted usually happy ones, she had a pretty good cover for her real ones. She speaks though and her words were different, he didn’t think he was misunderstanding them though, perhaps she didn’t either but again he needed to stop beating around the bush. He couldn’t worry about being wrong.
”I won’t ever leave you, Yin, not ever.” He said firmly, though he stopped for a moment stealing himself for what he had to say next pausing shifting again, why was it so hard to say this? ”Because…’cause… “ He loved Yin, he had said it before, he loved Yin. He knew it the day she came to him comforting him when he had failed, not failed, just life… Life happened, death happened, it wasn’t his failure and she told him that cheered him up she was always there to make him feel better. It was then that he knew but he had to voice it, ”I love Yin.” He said quietly, he sounded a bit like her, and it was odd how free it felt to say it out loud. He cared for Danny but he loved Yin. It felt like a brick fell out of his chest.
”I love Yin! I mean, you, Yin.” He said excitedly as he said it again, then the repeated words again louder and more firm than he had before a smile on his maw eyes bright his tail giving a few nervous waves behind him, but he had said it, he had told her and things suddenly just felt more clear than ever before. It was there but now it wasn’t confusing it just was how it was and he accepted it. No more confusing feelings torn between him, it just was this way and it wasn’t going to change. Not now, not ever. He wanted to be with her and was lucky to have her, love reciprocated or not, it didn’t matter, not anymore.
Meryl
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