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Posted on October 25, 2014 at 01:10:19 AM by Reich
| Reich
If love is what you need A soldier I will be |
| This was......a strange feeling. What was it called? This strange pain that I was feeling, something i'd never felt before nor dreamed of ever feeling. I think they called it heart break. Yes, that was the word. It started when I found out Everlyse had picked Ifrit over me and it gradually grew each day, each time I saw her with him with a smile I knew didn't belong to me. I couldn't fathom it, no matter the nights I stayed awake, wandering my shadows to try and ease my mind and heart, I couldn't fathom why. What did he have that I couldn't offer her? Was it his blood lust? His ability to hurt her? Because I would rather die than ever hurt her.
But I wouldn't give up on her. She was still my angel Everlyse, still my imprint and he could never take that from me. I would fight for her still, die for her still, even if he won't. I will be the man he won't be, not a killer, not some crazed monster who's only real intent with her is so he has someone to sire his young. Yes, I knew this, I could see it in his eyes. She is a possession to him, he does not harbor the love I do for her. He wants to control her, he had told her she was forbidden from visiting me until her belly was full with his pups. I was the Hostarius, I had watched, I had listened, all without being detected. For I was eyes and no voice, while he was mouth and no brain. Yet I would not do anything against him or them. I could never do that to my angel Everlyse. If this is what she desired, then I would not interfere. I would hold my tongue, though my distaste and dislike for him will still be very well known. But if he hurts her, in a way she does not ask for, because I cannot control that, I will kill him. He may be bigger than me, have killed before, but he does not have the something to die for, so he cannot win. She is my soul, and as far as i'm concerned, he doesn't have one if he can so willingly hurt another. I had been....obedient to Ifrits demands, even if I still wanted him to......piss off? yes, that's the phrase. I am not a violent wolf, actually far from it, but he makes my blood boil with hatred. Yet for Everlyse I stay silent, well more silent than usual. I keep for my Everlyse, keep my distance, yet I still watch from afar. Maybe it was a cruel thing to do, to keep so far from her, but I was giving her the life she had chosen, and it hurt to do so. I ran from the borders of Asteraia, from the rolling plains, because it was the only thing I could do right now to escape the torment of my own heart. I had let Fjallraven know i'd be out, so she wouldn't worry about me. I just...needed to run, to escape Asteraia. I couldn't go to the shadows of my caves, the memories engraved in the rocks would not be kind to me. I had watched, with silent eyes, them....cuddle together. And I just couldn't, because every fiber in my body wanted that to be me, not that red demon. But I was helpless to stop it, unwilling to hurt my angel Everlyse in anyway, to go against her in anyway. I guess you could say I was a victim of love. I ran silently, to a place that was unusual for me: the crags. I ran to a waterfall, one I knew had a small area behind it where I could just hide away until things calm down. I sat down, my tongue flopped out and my breathing hard. My split gaze just watched the water fall, because this is all I could do right now. Everlyse would have his pups, she would be his, and there was nothing I could do about it. But I would still love her, and I would love those pups because they were hers. This would never change. 
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Replies:
- show me where forever dies - By EVERLYSE October 25, 2014 at 02:13:50 AM
I'm an angel with a shotgun - By Reich October 25, 2014 at 05:41:47 AM
show me where forever dies - By EVERLYSE October 25, 2014 at 07:21:31 AM
I'm an angel with a shotgun - By Reich October 25, 2014 at 08:54:18 AM
show me where forever dies - By EVERLYSE November 11, 2014 at 02:07:26 AM
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