Romance is in the air...this is probably the most beautiful and scenic place in Blossom Forest. For the athletic and determined to come with their mates, for time away from pups. Only adults may come here; some of the ledges are too far apart for teens or pups to cross and some too high to scale.
IP: 71.31.105.198
Posted on July 7, 2012 at 01:49:21 AM by Misty
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The more time I spend with Raylen, the more I want to hide my face away, hide my eyes away from his own prying gaze. I don't know what he sees in my eyes and I don't want to know cause all I see is understanding and pain looking back at me and I know that as I am hurt by his leaving, so is his return painful for him because he can see the consequences in the glimpses of my eyes. In this moment, I wish I could be one of those heartless creatures I hear so much about, the evil wolves who can act like nothing's wrong, that can lock their emotions away and look blank and neutral, becuase this feels so much worse, feeling all this and knowing that all the world can see it. Even worse, the one wolf I wouldn't want to see it is the one that's seeing it. I know that Raylen's the type to beat himself up about it. He won't let it go and worse yet, it will be a while if anytime before he ever does. I can feel him trying to read me now, trying to see past the shaky shields I have up. Does he see that he's not the only one who hasn't slept a lot? Another weakness that I'd like to shield from him. When I answer him, I see a flicker of doubt in his eyes before he mumbles a response, telling me good but something tells me he wants to say much more than that. Even so, he chooses to make no comment on it so I shrug it off, not wanting him to worry more than I'm sure he already is. Now he startles me, stepping right up to me and leaning in toward my ear. My heart starts racing and my breath catches in my throat but I try to make myself ignore his close proximity as much as possible as he whispers in my ear. I can feel the emphasis of his words, especially the word tired. My whole face softens, wishing I knew what to do or say to comfort him, to let him know that I could never be mad at him. He goes on, saying that he wouldn't be surprised if I hated him. I could never hate him. I want to stop him right there but he keeps going, saying that he's sorry for everything and he wishes that it was enough and then he talks about leaving again if it will make me happy. My eyes widen in shock and pain and I suddenly feel like I can't breathe. Leave? Why would I want him to leave? Of course I don't want him to leave! When he curses, I flinch automatically, not used to this much emotion coming from Raylen. When did he get so angry? He tells me that I deserve to be happy and more and that he's done with everything life gives us and that he wants us to stop hurting. My lips parting, wishing I knew the right words to say to make him stop talking like this. When he's done, he steps back, flattening his ears and looking every bit as shocked as I feel right now. Regret flashes in his eyes and only then do I take a breathe and now it's my turn to step forward. Bowing my head, I push my forehead into his chest, longing to inhale his essence and be close to him. Only then do I talk, my voice soft and yet strong, a lot stronger than I feel. I know you're tired cause I'm tired too, Raylen. I'm tired of everything that's happened to me but you've got to have faith. Faith that it all happened for a reason. If none of that happened, then I wouldn't have found you. I wouldn't have found the strength to believe again. Pulling back, a soft smile arches on my lips for him. I could never hate you. I forgave you the minute I laid eyes on you. You have that effect on me. Want to stop hurting? Then stop letting it hurt. Want me to stop hurting? Then stay. Stay with me. I look into his eyes, waiting for a reaction. The worst he could do is reject me, right? Reject the offer to stay? I don't know what I'd do without him but at least I'll know the truth, know what he wants. |
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- OH, CAN YOU TELL I HAVEN'T SLEPT VERY WELL; - By raylen July 9, 2012 at 03:36:04 AM
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