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One of my deepest regrets is not having been there the night Amir went to Trenus to talk to Ruvindra. I wish I could have stopped him from going. I wish I could have talked him out of it, whatever he was planning to do. I could have saved his name. I could have watched at least, could have read their body language and figured out exactly what was going on because apparently its never as it seems with Amir and Vague. At first, Amir was the good guy with the sob story, deeply missing his family and wanting revenge. Then you have Vague who finds love but still wants to kill Amir, but he says it was to protect Ruvindra and Amir shows up and plays right into his paws by attacking Ruvindra. What are the odds? Why would Amir play his game? It just doesn't make sense to me, and perhaps it never will but that doesn't mean I have to quit fishing for facts. Vague is good at playing the game, at putting up a show, but what's hard to tell is what's real and what's made up. For all I know, he could really be the good guy in love who wants nothing more to do with Amir, but then again, he could be the guy putting on a mask for the world and really be a monster in the shadows. Ruvindra has already showed a different side to herself so why shouldn't he? She's taken over a dark place, a place of creatures who are feared and loathed in Moladian. No one would have seen this coming before, unless they knew her history before Trenus of course. She ruled over Mirovis for a while after taking it from Arsenic. She beat the crazy creature herself so she's not all black and white and taking over a place like Iromar helps prove it more. Amir was banished from Paracon and his name and pride taken from him so shouldn't Vague be happy by now if this was a vendetta? I don't recall Vague's name being taken when he was banished but it's not about that. Amir was marked by Vague, Ruvindra, Heyel, and myself when he attacked Ruvindra. He got his just desserts and yet it almost seems like Vague is sneering about it all. I can sense a little extra effort thrown into his gaze when he watches me, as if trying to find something. Good luck with that because I've got years of experience in hiding what I'm really thinking or feeling. It doesn't mean that I'm not doing the same thing, though, trying to read any hidden reactions as we converse. He seems genuinely interested to hear about Kiska, his eyes glinting a little more when I mention the twins. It's almost a hungry glint but I could be mistaken. Doubt plays through his expression if for only a moment, a sneak peek into something more and that alone keeps me guarded. There is a hidden agenda here, now I just need to find out what it is. I'm sure he understands why I'm not relaxed and open to meet him. He did still try to poison Amir, kill him. I know that what Amir did was wrong but it doesn't make it any less wrong, what Vague did. I cannot trust him. When I mention getting used to being just a pack wolf now, he chuckles a dry humorless sound before listening as I speak of Kane and Isola. His sigh is almost sad, as if regretting that his own children haven't led a pack just yet. He tells me that he's getting used to helping Ruvindra run things though the smile on his face tells me that he enjoys the power. Who wouldn't? He goes on to tell me that he's glad things are working out for me. I'm sure you're taking to it well enough. His eyes shine in slim satisfaction when I stiffen. I didn't mean it to be noticable but I can't always win on the blank front. When I tilt my head and merely look curious as to why he's thanking me, his lips start forming a smile, but it's more of a vicious smile than something heartfelt or good intentioned. My brow arches upward at this new development, waiting to see what it means for the direction of this conversation. He starts by pushing the fact that he needs to thank me before he actually reveals why. My eyes harden and narrow instantly, catching the steel tone to his voice now, the undercurrent of foul play. He tells me that I sealed Amir's fate by calling him traitor instead of asking what happened, as if there was something not fully understood that night. Did Amir really attack Ruvindra or was it something else? doubt flickers in my mind now though I work to keep it from my gaze. I won't give Vague that satisfaction. He stop halfway through, watching to see what he can see, letting it all sink in. I remain stoic and unreadable, my face a mask of determination to hear him out fully. If I've got to hear the truth from Vague, then at least I'm hearing it. I don't care who the source is. He goes on to tell me that Amir was only telling Ruvindra that he had planned on killing her before, not what he was actually there to do. It was still dumb of him to even say it if it wasn't his intention but it does put new light on the matter. Amir isn't a killer. I may not understand why he launched himself at Ruvindra or even gave the idea that he was going to attack her but that's not important. What's important right now is that Vague is starting to show his true colors. This is what I wanted all along, a reason to get my teeth wet. Do you still hunt Amir, Vague? Do you still crave his pain? You're a twisted little fuck, aren't you, to play such nasty games with him. All for what? Bitter enjoyment? What did he take from you, hm? You took his family, his only connection to who he was before you ripped it up and spit it out like last week's food. Why do you enjoy his torture so much? I'm genuinely curious, Vague. Amusement dithers in my tone now as I watch him, eyes gleaming with barely disguised humor. Did he think I would be weak and stutter over my words? I'm not called the Devil for nothing. |