It is him! It is truly him. It is not a dream. It is truly my son who stands in front of me, not only alive, but healthy and strong! My tail starts wags behind me happily as his eyes widen to my answer. He takes a few strides closer and his head lifts again and his tail wags behind him as happy as I am. Unable to help myself, I took a few steps closer. My head reaching to wrap around his neck in a wolfish hug. I couldn’t hold back! I couldn’t. I feel the soft fur of my own son blending with mine so softly. His touch brings happiness and great peace to my heart. I thought this moment would never come! I thought I would never see my son again. He… Seemed happy to see me! I am more and more relieved, the fear I felt is slowly fading away.
- I missed you, son! I missed you so much! I’ve looked for you everywhere! I thought I lost you… I... I love you!- I said, as I held him close in my wolfish hug.
I let go of him as he speaks. His ears fall low and he looks somewhat sad for something. My head tilts slightly and my face lights with concern. He speaks then, a bit hesitant. I whimper softly as he apologizes. With all the wolves in the world, he blamed himself for being gone. But never it would be his fault. He was not even a year old when the falling star took everything from us. It’s not his fault! It’s not! He… He has a kind heart!
- No! - I shook my head gently as he finished - Elric! It’s not your fault! It’s alright… What matters now, is that you returned.
My voice is gentle and kind as I spoke. I gave him a lick between his ears with all the affection. I gently sat down in front of him, my tail still waved happily behind me as I paused to let my words sink.
- Much had happened, my son! After the falling star, your mother and I were very sad… - I paused, to recompose myself - Your mother could save only Vidar… It’s been very hard. But after some time, we had to move on. Your mother built a whole pack... Iromar… Unfortunately it is discriminated by others, but it’s a good home.
He sat down in front of me, looping his tail around his paws. He looked so excited! I am so happy to see him! And even more happy to see the excitement in his eyes as he watched me. Finally I found a smile breaking through my lips once more, but not any smile… The true smile, warm and happy. After these years, the happiness is finally coming back to me again. Elric asked me what have I been doing for these years, he calls me father… My eyes are watery for a second, just as I hear this. I know that I am his father. But… I have never heard it… like this…
My head lower at his question and my ears slowly fold back. How could I tell him? I have been attacking others! But I have a reason! Would he… Judge me… Would he hate me too if I told him? My eyes, show the fear in me. He proceeds to tell me that he missed his family. I couldn’t hold back again and reached to give him another lick on his forehead fondly.
- We missed you too, Elric! It had been so hard without you, - I told him - I have been… Trying to get used to being an alpha. And… Protecting the pack.
I… Feel strange… I don’t know what is happening. Why am I so ashamed for my actions? For quite some time I was right, wasn’t I? Now I feel so guilt, so bad. Nothing I did makes sense! Does it?
I raised my head again, and our gaze met once more. He has Ruvindra’s eyes. He is so beautiful.
- And you, son? Where have you been? What have you been doing?
I tried to wash this guilt away from me and concentrate only on him. My beloved son! The calm breaking waves of the lake made everything so peaceful. I haven’t felt like this for a long time.
10 years old | Lord of Iromar | Forever Ruvindra’s lover | --30in/120lbs--
Tear me to pieces ;Don't get caught in my schemes
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Whisper words into your ears ;Let me see you hit the ground |