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Posted on May 16, 2013 at 03:42:17 AM by Enigma
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It all happens so fast. The orca has taken our alpha right out from under our noses. I am helpless, my loyalty urging me to do something, anything, but common sense telling me that there's nothing I can do at this point; Weylin can't be helped. Still, another whimper rises in my throat, sure that Selene is going to do something drastic. He is her imprint, her everything. I glance at Cobryn, looking to him for guidance. Perhaps he's not ready for such pressure, to be looked to for answers when he's been looking to me for so long. But a part of me knows that he is ready. He has been improving drastically over the past few months. Since coming to Glorall, he has stepped up, taken on a role in the pack and started to prove himself. He may not be so happy since Weylin took over but I know he can get through this; We can get through this. He looks troubled but I figure it must have to do with my tail being broken. I smile when he nuzzles me, cherishing these small gestures of affection. I can only hope he's genuine. Do I doubt his feelings? No, I am sure he truly believes that he loves me. Call it insecurity since I've never gotten what I wanted before and this whole love thing is still way above my head. I feel out of league sometimes, way out of my league when it comes to him. I always doubt that I'm good enough for him. I always doubt that I'm what he truly wants, what he needs. Jaidah brought out a side of him that I didn't even know existed. I'd like to say that I knew the real him before he fell for her. The troubled side that always fell for the wrong girl. He poured his heart and soul into each wolf that he gave himself to and I loved him for that, for every sacrifice, for every tear. He was beautiful to behold, perfect in every facet and yet, I am troubled more by my wayward thoughts on the more recent Cobryn I've seen, the Cobyrn before he got attacked and lost himself. Am I more displeased that he has a darker side, or that he showed that dark side to someone other than me? My gut twists and my skin flares in sudden yearning, yearning not just for his deep unyielding affection and love but yearning for something deeper, a taste of something darker. Would he look at me with that same need, that same thirst as he did Jaidah? Would he want to take me, control me, use me? Does a part of me want him to? My skin tingles and I inhale sharply, trying to distract myself from these troubling thoughts. I want him with every cell in my body and I want him to be his true self, every fucked up molecule. I want him to want me in every way the way I want him. I want his love, his affection, his heart, his soul. Could he ever be that way with me? Could he ever let himself go, let himself free as he did with her? He knows I would never ask him to kill, to eat others. That was Jaidah, not me and I know he was ashamed of what he'd done with her. That doesn't mean he has to be ashamed of how he acted with her, the way he wanted her. I want that now. I would never push him to such a thing and if he chooses to always be gentle with me, I will allow it because I will take whatever he gives me. Cobryn means everything to me. He seems more focused on staying where he is, cuddled up against me, so I start relaxing, though only a little. His two words whispered catch me off guard, my ears pricking as I look at him in surprise and awe. My lips part, my breath exhaling in a long drawn out sigh, eyes gleaming with love and appreciation. I lean in closer, meshing my fur with his as I push my forehead into his gently, looking straight into his eyes, drinking him in as I whisper. "And I love you. Always." I don't know what I would do without him. I would be lost. |
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- i'm alive and now i'm burning - By COBRYN May 22, 2013 at 11:34:42 PM
Watch Me Come Undone - By Enigma May 23, 2013 at 03:22:52 AM
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