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Posted on May 21, 2013 at 00:11:45 AM by Devil May Cry
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I run as if my life depends on it, my paws not daring to make a sound even in my grief as I stride forward powerfully, putting as much distance between myself and Diveen as possible. Diveen is painful right now for it houses the cold dying body of my daughter, the daughter I thought I'd already lost once. I lost Stella so long ago, before I could even gain her forgiveness, before I could show her that she was still my daughter, even if she stored the DNA of another. I do not yet know the fate of Ellie but she has been a stranger to me and I feel as if I've lost her as well. Cordova, my strong son who even with his handicap of deafness could see and hear more than most fully capable wolves. My fearless Zeteri who wanted only to hunt and make her father proud. She was the shining star in the darkness and she's gone. Capone, the little mystery who stayed with Fathom and tolerated her attitude. He was so patient with her. All remains of Natalya and most of the remains of the one I've chosen, Kiska, are gone now and I feel lost. My soul and heart are breaking rihgt before my eyes and I feel helpless, torn. I haven't seen or heard Kiska's voice in so long and it's killing me from the inside out because I haven't spoken to my imprint since our last fight. She wanted me to leave Kiska and be with her as Fate had intended and I rejected her even though every fiber of my being was protesting, urging me to do as she says and go with her, be with her till the end. I turned my back on Natalya but she was never lost to me, never forsaken. I still watched over her even if she didn't want me to but I haven't been to see her lately and it's killing me slowly. My body is aching, my soul breaking down all around me and now my daughter Fathom comes back to me only to start dying right before my eyes. I left before it was even confirmed. I couldn't stand it, this not being able to do anything. Knowing that I couldn't save her broke me. Now my daughter is gone and I did nothing about it. I run to the only wolf who will understand, the only one who will grieve with me. Kiska will be sad to find out but it won't be the same since she's not flesh and blood to my mate but my imprint, the mother of the daughter in question, she will understand. Maybe she will blame me, say this is all my fault. Maybe she'll yell at me again, accuse me, and I'll take it like I always do because I deserve it. I deserve this punishment for forsaking my soul. I deserve this for letting Fathom go, for letting Stella go. I deserve this for not being a better father to them, a better teacher. Maybe then I would still have them and maybe I would still have her. Do I really think that Natalya would have stayed with me? No, not unless I made a decision and it was for her. She was too proud to stand by while I went between her and Kiska. I know it hurt her terribly that I chose Kiska and I still don't regret my decision. I couldn't stand the thought of losing Kiska and maybe if she was around now, I could bury my sorrow in her and let her heal me but since she's not here, I run to Natalya, my soul already ten paces ahead. When I get to the borders, I throw back my muzzle, a grievous howl ripping from my lungs. I call for my imprint, my soul. The pain is sharp, the feelings still raw. |
Replies:
- ~ Mind Over Matter ~ - By Dude May 22, 2013 at 11:29:58 AM
keep the nightlight on - By Salem May 24, 2013 at 11:59:34 AM
&& the evil inside of me. - By Devil May Cry May 29, 2013 at 02:49:23 AM
~ Mind Over Matter ~ - By Dude June 5, 2013 at 06:49:26 AM
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