I take heart in the fact that she remains at my side, as if knowing it's where she belongs. I know I belong at hers. I never want to leave her again and this time, I know I wouldn't have a reason to unless it was to save her. I would do anything to save her. I don't want to think about losing her again. It consumed me, this rage, frustration, these feelings I've never experienced before. All I knew was I wanted her back. I needed her back, and thankfully, the gods smiled down on me and now I have her back. I don't want to think about what could have happened if she didn't take me back, if she didn't forgive me. It's too painful to think about. I know that now that we're back in Moladian, things can happen, things I don't want to happen, such as imprinting. If a male imprints on her, so help me, I'll tear every drop of blood from is body. I won't share her, not for anything or anyone. If I imprint, I'll fight it tooth and claw with everything in me just to be with her and only her. I won't succumb like these weaker males that leave what they've already chosen for themselves. I know what I want and I've got her so why would I ever give her up? For something fate has chosen for me? Fuck that.
She seems to notice that I'm tense, but I'm sure she'll understand why. With spring right around the corner, it will get easier but I wonder if she'll ever want that for herself, for us. I would never push reproduction on her if its something she doesn't want to do. I still remember the wonder I felt at the thought of being a father but I would give it all up just for one more moment of awe looking at her and knowing she's mine. If she never wants kids, that's okay. If she does, I'll be one lucky son of a bitch. I wonder at her ideals about the whole having kids things. We've never discussed it. Of course, we didn't really get a chance to discuss much of anything and I'll continue to tear myself up over that lost time but at least we get a second chance and I'll be damned before I screw that up asking questions. She'll let me know if she wants to create life. Until then, I'm happy enough to have her.
When I tell her that I won't leave, she rewards me with a soft smile and I'm falling all over again. I can see the trust blossoming in her eyes and it moves me that she can have so much faith in me. I can tell there's something bugging her but since she doesn't want to tell me, I won't pry. She offers me a shy smile before looking away and I swear she might actually be blushing beneath her beautiful white fur. The thought makes me smirk, feeding my ego as I press against her further. When I ask about her having a den, she tells me that she doesn't have a place, that it's strange to be back. I nod.
"I know. it's like stepping into the future. I feel like I've aged ten years."
It's a bitter sweet smirk I give her, since in my mind, I'm immortal. I don't really feel any older but in a way, I guess I am. If anything, the search for her aged me. She walks toward me and when she brushes against me, my skin shudders in pleasure. I gasp at the sensation, my eyes burning into her petite figure as she says we can find a place together. I tilt my head, watching her with a hungry expression, but not the kind where you want food. I follow her gaze as she looks toward the island and my lips twitch with amusement. I come up beside her, my voice gentle.
"I don't think there's a den there, love. Come."
I start walking down the bank toward the woodlands on the edge, sure that we'll find something worth holing up in for the night. From there, we can start our search. I don't know what Rose wants, if she wants to join a pack or if she's happier on our own. I'm happy as long as I have her. But I will have to find some excuse to go hunting tomorrow. I can bring her back something to keep her suspicions down but damn, I'm starving. Even now, I can't help glancing over at her lustrous fur and all I'm really looking for is that pulsing vein on the side of her neck. It's covered by her thick fur but I know it's there and it's almost like I can hear each time it pulses with thick red blood. I find myself slowly licking my lips but I tear my gaze away, focusing on what's ahead. I won't endanger her, never. I'll starve myself before I bring her to harm.
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so just bite me baby
and drink all my blood
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