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See through different eyes .: THE TRUTH :. IP: 189.6.29.196 Posted on November 18, 2013 at 05:54:22 PM by Voltaire
I've done too much. Since I first came to these lands, so many years ago after this wolf who stands in front of me. I was after him and everyone knows that and what kind of wolf seeks to kill a young pup? Not a good one, for sure. Amir was only two years old when it all happened and I went after him to take his life. So I had to make him seem like a different wolf, not that kind hearted one he had always been. So kind, in fact, that he would never win a play-fight against his brothers to make them happy. I had to destroy that image to get to him, but I didn't know how. I tried in different ways and I ended up getting banished from my pack. Trenus. Then it came the perfect time, when he went to Trenus to apologize for... being "responsible" for my banishment. It was my chance to destroy his image and I did. He felt my pain. He felt what I did when I was judged for going after him.
Then the sky fell and all was gone. My very first litter, for a long time I thought I lost them. Nothing hurt me more than that and for a long time I forgot Amir. I did attack Diveen, afraid of them. I was out of my mind. I wanted to protect my Ruvindra, the pack and... I wanted to hurt them. I even tried to kill Amir when I captured him after fiding out that he was living in Diveen. Just so they could feel what I did when I lost all. But then, Isola made me see what I couldn't, she made me see that I was wrong. I forgot that they also had lost many that day too. She told me what Heyel did, how he tried to save everyone and I never looked at him with the same eyes full of blame, accusation. But it was too late, I did too much. They would never forgive me.
Then, my own mate had betrayed me. She chose another as her mate and left me.
Since then, Amir hadn't been so much in focus for me. I was still angry for what he did, but it wasn't quite as bad anymore. I lost my mate. The only one I have now is Ska. I just want to be a better dad for her.
Heyel keeps a watch on us, a little busy with the game they now made up, I just dismiss their actions and answer Amir, telling him that I changed. He answers, telling me that he will believe my words only when he sees it. His words are heavy with anger and accusations. I growl back at him lightly and watch as my last words seemed to make him confused, but his ears soon fall back once again and he speaks. His words are sharp and almost can hurt. He still accuses me for his mother's death. My head lowers.
- ... You still believe that? You still believe that I took your mother's life in cold blood?
I paused, my ears lowering as I remembered that night.
- Do you remember early that day? I went after that pack of travelers seeking a home for you, for your mother and siblings. It took me part of the day to get to them, because they never stopped and when I reached them, they rejected us for they had already too many wolves in their pack. That's when all started.
I came back, sad. It was our chance of having a better life. I arrived just late at night
I continued explaining...
- When the moon was just high enough to light part of the forest alone, I reached our den. You were sleeping quietly as your siblings. I didn't want to wake you up, so I poked your mom softly with my nose and called her outside to talk and tell her that we still had no home. I told her, but she understood. We heard a noise coming from deep within the woods and we walked quickly away from the den and somewhere we could see better. We reached a small clearing and stayed there. Something was following us. There was silence for a few seconds and then, from behind a higher bush, a black panther jumped on us and simply started attacking us two. It was bigger than us and very strong. It aimed me first and tackled me. Your mother attacked, defending me and it reacted, letting go of me and attacking her. I raised and attacked again. Both of us fought against that black beast. It was too quick and hurt us both badly, scratching our sides, paws, muzzle. We tried to keep it away and protect ourselves. After some time, I managed to hit it's muzzle and it ran away, disappearing into the woods again. But when I looked at your mother...
I paused once more. The feelings getting the best of me. I loved Amir's mother. Caroline. She was there with me, I took care of her and the children. I've been there when Amir was born and I have been there the whole time for her. Amir will never understand how hard it was.
- ... She was tired and badly hurt. She fell on her side and started panting...
I kept telling him, remembering everything.
After fighting that big feline, we were both tired and hurt. Almost my entire body had scratches, bites and bruises. My head turned to look at Caroline, my lover, savior and partner in the fight. Her situation was much worse, not only she had more scratches, more bite marks, but she was bleeding. She fell on her side with a quiet whimper and in that very moment, mother nature seemed to be right with me. A strong and roaring thunder striked the sky, lightning everything up for a moment and traducing how strong my heart beat was. I approached her quickly and lowered my head to lick her muzzle.
- You did amazing, Carol... You're strong, love. I... I am going to get help, just hang on.
I lowered my muzzle to look at her wounds. I knew a little about healing. What I saw just managed to draw a whimper from deep within me. Her ribcage, it didn't seem well. The beast had tackled her once and used it's paw to pin her down.
- ...It hurts!... Whenever I breath too...- She whimpered loudly in terrible pain.
I didn't know what to do. In that moment, I couldn't answer her. My paws wanted to throw me forward so I could find help, but my body stayed there frozen and unsure.
-... It's... Okay, love... I will...
She coughed and I looked in her eyes. My own golden and blue eyes filled with fear. I didn't know what to do, I didn't. I couldn't leave her here and I couldn't go look for help. It's been a long trip to get to that pack and took the entire day to go and come back. With a broken rib, she wouldn't... What do I do! I whimpered loudly. Cold rain drops started falling as I stood, beside her. The rain started lightly as if slowly claiming her and she understood, from my lack of words, from the fear in my eyes.
- Vague... I... Need you to take care of the children...
Just that phrase was enough to make tears roll down my muzzle. I didn't want to accept it, I didn't want to give up. I wasn't ready, I couldn't let this happen.
- ... No, there are.. there is a flower, a herb that can help. Love, I will be back. I will find it and I will come back. Caroline, you're strong, don't say that, okay. Please don't give up.
My muzzle lowered to nuzzle hers, to confort her. But instead, she nuzzled me herself, knowing my fear. I tried to move and go to find this flower, but stopped as she called my name.
-...Vague, it's okay. There is nothing to fear, it's alright...
- No... No... What will I say to the children? Please...I must try. I can't... I can't leave you.. I can't...
My voice was filled with sadness and almost fading into my light sobs as I spoke softly.
-... You never did... You're here aren't you? You have always... been here. All I am asking you.. Is that you be there for them as you have for me.
I whimpered and nodded slowly in reply. My strength vanished and I couldn't even speak. her lips tugged gently into a soft smile. I looked at her and still tried to think of something. I was so helpless. That beautiful smile faded slowly and in that very moment she looked in my eyes and I could see that she wanted one more thing from me and I had no idea of how strong I would have to be.
- ...Vague...You... Have to put an end to this... Pain.. - She asked softly.
- ...Caroline...
I cried letting my tears fall to soon mix with the rain as she kept looking in my eyes, asking silently to do it with her ears low and whimpering in pain.
-... Voltaire.
She said my real name and I couldn't help but just whimper and plead silently for her not to force me to put one more star in the sky. To force me to make her leave me, to leave us. Quietly, she lowered her head to rest it on the ground and coughed once more.
- Don't leave me... Right in the end.
She said and drew another whimper from me. I wouldn't... I would never leave her. With shaking paws, I approached her throat.
- I love you.
I spoke softly before letting my jaws wrap slowly around her neck feeling the warmth of her fur, her heart beating fast.
- I love you too.
She replied. Time passed and I still wasn't able to close my jaws. I would never be able to see her again, to hear her sweet voice. I didn't want to do this and I didn't want to leave her alone. I had to do it. With a great pain that smashed my heart hard against my chest as if I was biting my own heart, I closed my jaw. Ears pinned hard against my head as I heard her last whimper. My whole body shook in weakness as I felt her heart beat slowing quickly. I could hear it's sound and in that moment it was all I could hear. It's not been too long before her heart stopped and all fell silent. Her body was finally in peace as in a rush of the strong wind, her soul was carried away. My eyes filled with tears once again and my body shook uncontrolably, weak and destroyed. After several moments, I finally let go of her, whimpering mourning my loss.
Remembering this, made my eyes fill with tears once more as I told Amir what had really happened that night.
-... and in that very moment I saw you and in rush of emotion... I passed out. I couldn't take it.- I told them.
I raised my head and looked at Amir, anger clear in my eyes.
- ... And when I woke up again, your sister's body was on my paws. I looked up and you were there, running away... - I growled - ... So don't you dare blame me for your sister... I swore I would take your life for killing your own sister... I lied to you about your mother. So you would come after me... I loved your mother, I would never be able to kill her in cold blood.
I paused, still growling...
- Nobody ever believed that you did that, so I had to destroy your image and show them what a murderer you are.When you went to Ruvindra to apologize. It was the perfect time. I just had to pretend you wanted to kill her since the beginning... I wanted you to feel the pain I did.
I have no reason to hide anything anymore. I just don't know why he blames me for his sister's death.
Why is everything so cloudy
Voltaire See through different eyes
Lightning Queen
The Queen of Diveen. She may accept all challenges and block any steal. She is the sworn protector of the pack and all who reside here.
Thunder King
The Lightning Queen's mate and second-in-comman. He may accept any challenge and block all steals. He may accept new members. This position cannot be challenged for but is currently empty.
Whirlwind
This rank belongs to the closest advisor to the Lightning Queen. This wolf can block steals and accept new members. When there is no Thunder King, this rank may accept challenges. This rank cannot be challenged for.
Stormfront
These wolves are the protectors of the borders and are personal guards to the Lightning Queen. They may help to gauge new wolves and are essentially the domestic protector. In certain times they may be called upon to resolve domestic disputes, but generally they are tasked with watching the borders or staying close to the Lightning Queen. At times, information may need to be brought to the Stormfront who will personally deliver messages to the Lightning Queen.
Quake
The Quake is the lead warrior and in charge of the Tremors, who make up the brute force of the pack. This wolf is a protector of the borders and may accept new wolves. They may be called upon to help gauge a new member. They train the Tremors. Haze
The Haze is the head thief and secret keeper of the pack, charged with acting in the pack’s best interest and operating with a low profile. They train the Mists. They also act as a scout, relaying and finding out information. They work closely with the Tsunami. This wolf may block steals. Monsoon
The Monsoon is the lead healer and caregiver of the pack. They are tasked with healing wounds, assisting with births, and making sure that the pack remains happy and healthy both mentally and physically. They may also be called upon to boost morale through storytelling or other means. They train the Rains. Tsunami
The Tsunami is the lead diplomat and peacekeeper, tasked with protecting the pack from internal and external strife, as well as form treaties and ally with other packs in conjunction with the Lightning Queen and Whirlwind. They report directly to the Lightning Queen, and train the Tides. Blizzard
The Blizzard works closely with the Haze, but is more of an information gatherer. They may act as a thief at times, but are largely tasked with spying and scouting, reporting their findings to their superiors. Hurricane
The Hurricane is the head hunter of the pack. They train the Wind and organize pack hunts.
Rainbow
This wolf is the joker of the pack. Their job is to bring a smile to everyone's face and try to keep a light mood. They will be tasked with caring for pups and keeping an eye on them. They are the keeper of all types of fun and games for the pack. Gale
The Gale is concerned mostly with keeping track of the history of the pack, collecting stories and learning of events that might have happened long ago. They might tell history as stories to pups or create events in honor of those who have gone before.
Tremors
These wolves report to the Quake and make up the protectors and warriors of the pack.
Mists
The agents of the Haze, these wolves are tasked with maintaining order through more secretive means.
Tides
The Tides are diplomats and report to the Tsunami, they may be tasked with updating treaties or contacting allies.
Rains
These are the healers and caregivers of the pack, and they report to the Monsoon. They may be called upon as healers or babysitters. Winds
These are the hunters of the pack, responsible for feeding each member. They report to the Hurricane. Snows
These are the scouts of the pack, reporting to the Blizzard- they are involved with information gathering, both internal and external, and may be called upon as guerilla fighters of sorts should the time come.
Dusk
The general members of the pack, those who have not yet chosen a path or rank. However, they are still highly valued and may be called upon for other things.
Twilight
The apprentices of the pack, pups older than one who are in training.
Dawn
The innocence and the future of our pack.
Day
Esteemed guests of the pack.
Sun
Those allied with the pack, to be treated with respect and offered assistance.
Moon
Those who shine down upon us and guide us with their light.
Eclipsed
Those who have proven themselves enemies of the pack, they should not be trusted.