He hadn’t left her mind since their time spent together. She had missed his company when he had left but she would not try and keep him there for her own sake. He was free to do as he liked and no matter what occurred between them it was always his right. She liked the thought of him staying but of his own free will. “I would be most grateful if you didn’t but fear you may.” She spoke softly. As he begins to apologies she could help sake head and brush her muzzle under his. “You have done me no wrongs. I am grateful for your company any day.” As he spoke her heart raced in excitement as he spoke once more. “I have missed your company as well, it has been sad not to speak with you though.” She admitted softly. It was a new feeling to be missed but she enjoyed the fact someone cared enough to notice her presence when it was no longer there.

As he pulled her into his embrace once more she takes the moment to advantage. She stays as closely pressed as she closely as it was possible. She nuzzled into his embrace fearing it to be her last she takes the time to remember each scent on him, his markings, his voice, and his familiar warmth. Happy he was pleased to be a dad but anxious to the fact he overlooked the other words that spilled from her mouth. Did he understand and accept or did he not notice but at his reaction her anxieties had become realized.

As he steps back the pain felt new again. She tried to speak clearly enough but her words only came forth in a whisper. “I had no one before I met you Attu… I wanted family I did not imagine I could find someone I could care about or that would care for me… I felt nothing, feel nothing for the other.” She spoke trying to explain her circumstances and reasons for her actions. She didn’t have feelings for Enderly but it didn’t mean it hurt less when he abandoned her; but when Attu had gone it was a much more devastating experience. In the time she had gotten to know him she realized she had felt something more weather he had felt the same or no she didn’t know perhaps it meant nothing but it didn’t change the fact she enjoyed his company, and hoped she could keep it as she grew older but could her foolishness even ruin hopes of having at the very least; a friendship with him?

“I can understand if leave me to be alone… I would not say anything in anger if you did. You are a father Attu, and you do not know how much it would mean if you would be by my side through this but if you say no I will still ensure your right to see your children should you desire it that is.” Her tone was clearly pained and heavy as she gazed into his eyes hoping for the best yet fearing for the worst.