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As I eat alongside Natu I feel a sudden pull on my soul and my gaze. My attention drifts from from the food, my appetite being dulled for a new feeling, a feeling I have never felt before. It was like a magic had taken over me and I found my icy gaze singling out one male, the others of no importance to me. His pelt was of the snow like mine and he had an icy blue gaze as well. The second our eyes locked, everything seemed to fall into place. Nothing else mattered but him and I felt this need to get closer to him.

Was this what the wolves of Moladion called imprinting? When two souls are tied together and the male will move heaven and earth should the female require it. I didn't fully understand the whole arrangement, there was nothing like it in the tundra where i'm from. The sisterhood of assassins would not approve of this imprinting, the mother made it clear we were to have no attachments. She said it interfered with our abilities and judgements, so we never questioned her; not that we ever did in any of her decisions. But now, since I had abandoned my sisterhood and their ways to move on to Moladion, I was more willing to investigate these odd feelings.

I can feel the bit of saddness that ripples from his soul while he looks at me. I tilt my head, curious as to why that feeling afflicted. Then, just like that, he turns and begins to walk away. I feel this desire to follow after him, but I don't. My main objective is to keep my friend Natu safe, and I can see the curve in his path, meaning he will circle around. Even while he is out of my senses range, I can still feel his soul's presence near by, and then it is behind me. He is crouched there but I do not react, I continue to act as I had before with Natu until he suddenly turns and bolts away. I watch him, wondering why he runs away like that, but again I do not follow. If he wants to come to me, he will come.

After we finish eating, Natu seems to get distracted by an older, white male; I can only assume she has also found her imprint since so many wolves have gathered today. The second he begins to head towards us, I say my goodbyes and leave her to her imprint. I move with my silent, deadly grace out of the clearing and back into the shadows, having no need to stay now that Natu is with that male and my imprint has fled. And like a phantom, I am gone once more.

Night falls and I think about going back to Spirane and my den to sleep, but something inside me tells me not to. I cannot explain this feeling, but I find myself moving to the woodlands. It only becomes apparent to me when that tug on my soul returns; he is near. I slip through the shadows, having my nose and my soul lead the way. Soon I spy his white form moving through the shadows, looking for something or someone. I am silent in my approach, stepping out like the assassin I am. I stop in front of him and find myself simply looking at him, taking everything in about him now that I am closer. I tilt my head slightly, curious of the male who's soul was given to me by fate. I do not know what to say, so I say nothing. Will he run again or will he speak?

7 years | loveless | tied to Eric | Spirane | ♥