I lay there watching the emotions come over his face, I have made him unsure, and this is plain to see by the way his tail flicks and his ear moves back and forth. The other stays stationary and I am to blame for that, for the pain it must cause to move it. I continue to eat, watching him as he cautiously approaches me, the breakfast he has made for me is simply exquisite. I close my good eye as he approaches, knowing he will not harm me again, seeing it plain in the wonder of his eye. His muzzle against me so suddenly makes me jump and make a deeply satisfied growl at the contact, pale ears tilting back toward him as he makes his way in a shimmering storm of heat and desire up my side. His scent now covers my own, and I am clothed in death, Adonis coming up to lick at the side of my delicate face.

I move my head to the side, making room for him and let my golden gaze find his own, wondering if he would want to try it as well. His nose against my eye stings, but I know he only wants to make it feel better. His question breaks my heart, and I swallow my latest bite of pup before I answer. "You were forgiven in the first step you took away from me. I hated myself for what I had done...forgive me, Adonis. I do not want us torn apart like the corpses we leave behind. " I wished for a family, like what we had been with mother and father, but I know this won't happen, we cannot get over our own jealousies enough to let it. I only wanted us happy, together, and whole again.

I could not handle more separation. I illustrate this by leaning into him, my head bending a bit as I meet his gaze. How would we get through winter if we could never deny the other anything?