| i was the better man
I had made myself absent of late and yet I cared not to whom that had bothered. In all my years of growth and childhood my golden gaze had forever looked upon my Mother as a creature to aspire to, perfection upon this earth as I myself was- made entirely in her image, my form a perfect replica of her own save the single touch of white upon my tail gifted by a sire unknown and yet I cared not to know. I knew only what was needed and that was that Ava had bestowed life upon me and that it was my purpose in life to assure the perfection of our lineage continued. Or so I had believed. I had been in attendance at the birth of my mothers litter, the only she has brought forth aside from the perfection that was that of my own, Anselm and Eden. I had looked upon my Mother with an awe of sorts ever since the day of my own birth and yet that image had become….tarnished. She had near died to birth her litter the eve and yet for all her suffering and blood spill she had been rewarded with nothing but vile weakness. Pathetic, deformed and sickly children.
I had known in that single moment that whomever had sired those children had not been he whom had fathered myself and my wings, my brothers- no. They were half siblings and yet still I laid no claim to them. I cared not too. I will not attach myself to such disgusting creatures. Why she lets them live I do not know, they tarnish her name and our own as they the blunder in their weak, uselessness. The females had been passable though they had yet to be anything other then mewling parasites I cared not to approach- the males were not worth speaking of. Some part of myself was….ashamed of my Mothers weakness. Perhaps she had grown weak in her age, perhaps she had grown blind when she had allowed whomever it was the father her children to do as such.
I would speak to Brother Eden of it in time, though for now I chose simply to look over the lands that surrounded me, my form seated in its glorious perfection atop the sand. The smoke and shadow of me pelt glowed within the sun, my golden gaze flecked with violet scanned the area with little to no interest. Few things ever drew my interest. Indeed I appeared only when I sought the need, my actions otherwise remained my own, my movements secretive and positions unclear. I saw no need for anything else. If Eden cares that I contribute nothing to his pack save my presence then he has never voiced as such and I care not if he has. My teeth will find the flesh of any enemy should they rise against what is mine and yet until that time I see no reason to do otherwise then allow my mind to wander and consider its thoughts. My Mothers latest litter would need to be eliminated and if she would not do it herself, then I would make it so, in time.
Ayal
for i was a ruler amongst men |