She let the twins go off to wander in the pack, let them become familiar with their new home let them finds new find places and secret hiding places, it would be good for them. She wanted to see them settled, happy, and free before she died. There was only one other thing the golden wolf’s heart ached and yearned for just as much. Taliesin. Even if a reconciliation between them couldn’t happen and he could never forgive her she would be happy just to know him, too just see him and watch him breath one more time.

For anyone who knew Doe they would have known how much she had wanted her own puppies to love and protect. To raise and watch grow, teach about life. Yet with every litter something happened. Her cursed life she would now blame it on, the consequences of every decision after Skrillex died she thinks is the problem. Her soul should've died with his. Yet this is no excuse for what she did. For leaving her puppy alone. Every day she had wondered how he was, hated herself for the decision to follow Fenrir out. It didn't matter if she knew he would be safe in Spirane with Moonglow and the others, she shouldn't have left, what kind of mother left her young behind.

It's harder now for her to track him, her sense of smell and her eyesight had started to fade, along with her ability to do just about everything else, had the twins not helped feed her and themselves she surely would've perished in the journey back. Now once easily climbable cliffs and rocks, the ghost of a girl used to play on now posed a dangerous threat. Joints now stiffened with arthritis and the wounds that should've killed her but instead left painful reminders of what could've been, protested every time the wolf leaped or bounced yet she still pushed herself on. She would find him.

A denser gathering of trees filled with his scent pulls her in, her tired body begs her to sit, just for a moment. But she won't. She's too close too stop now. “Taliesin?” Her soft voice falls questioning out of scarred lips as she tries to hide the pleading tone threatening to creep out. She doesn’t want him to feel bad or obligated to interact with her, it would pain her if that was the only reason he'd allow her presence. She simply wants to see the son that she's dreamed of for years, the only one who gave her hope and a reason to keep fighting off death in the first place.