Why was I doing this? Why was I going this way?

I didn’t know. I was following the river to Glorall and this is where I heard Natu ended up after being stolen off the free lands. Well that’s what happens to loners I guess, still I know where I find her I will find Fenrir. I am not sure why I am doing this… I guess after meeting and speaking with mother and getting more truth out of her I am willing to at least be more cordial with him. I don’t think I can ever call him father though, Alcide was my father he was there for me a lot but I wanted to see Fenrir at least tell him I think I understand more how he was able to leave me behind… Sort of. I still never will forgive the act of abandoning me as a child, but I think I can bring myself to forgive him knowing my mother is alive, though she is not well. I don’t know how much time we have left together, but I will try to enjoy getting to know her properly and make up for the years of lost time. Fenrir has moved on though, but she was still using me as a way to cling to the happy years she had in Moladion… I guess that was why I was more willing to forgive her than him. Call me selfish but at least I didn’t feel as forgotten, especially after hearing about the twins. I frown, I really wish I could find the bastard and rip his throat out… but for another day, for another war…

Now I needed to find him though. The wolf of black, my sire the one that made me into a dragon and made me become the fiery warrior I was when I needed to be. All my situations made me become the wolf I was. The pseudo father of Haven and Idunn, the strong reliable brother of the Queen ofSpriane and her younger siblings, proud uncle and Justicar of Spirane… I guess I am learning to accept what cards I was dealt even though they were bad hands over and over, some of the bad hands turned to good over time, I think about Solara and I and what we are… becoming I guess if you can call it that. The first true bond I have had with an imprint was something I couldn’t deny as my soul slowly patched itself back together.

I continue traveling with the river though knowing this isn’t the fastest route to Glorall but I need to collect my thoughts along the way. And there were a lot… My face was stony and hard pressed to do anything but scowl in thought, my firey form moving at a measured pace. A medium trot, one paw in front of the other with little thought as I bounced through the snow traveling along the way. I it would be a few hours yet before I arrived, I wouldn’t be able to make it back to Spriane tonight but I thought about maybe going to see Solara too since I was in the area and stay with her in Diveen. Time would tell and I needed to just do this one step at a time.