unable to bind.mated to none.father to Eztli, Lixue, Petra, Citlalli, & Itzel.Taviora

His feelings for Tuari is what made it so hard to tell her about Talien. He knew she was hurting and he couldn't do anything about it. He was causing her pain and it killed him because she meant so much to him. Usually he could take anything. He tortured the minds of killers for a living before he dismantled them piece by piece and scattered their limbs throughout the lands for a living but this was different. Tuari was his best friend and confidante, his other half, and he hated seeing the tears in her eyes and knowing he put them there. He didn't know if he ever forgive himself for making her feel like this. He had never seen her angry like this but he knew somehow that he deserved it. Why shouldn't she be angry? He must have been leading her on, giving her hope somehow that there was more. He was oblivious to it until now so it made sense that he must have been doing it without thinking about it. He was a little fearful as he looked up at her, but not for his own life. He could care less if she chose to tear out his throat right now because he would die telling her that it was okay, that he deserved it. He was a monster, after all.

No, he was fearful because he knew what it would do to her if she did something bad to him. She would never forgive herself. It would weigh on her the rest of her life and he didn't want that for her. She was not a monster like him. She was a hunter of prey animals, not of wolves. He stared up at her in wonder. She was such a strong female and she didn't give herself enough credit. It seemed she wanted his attention so that's exactly what he gave her. He knew he was definitely big enough to get her off of him if he really wanted to but that was the furthest thing from his mind. He would never try to hurt her like that. She told him to stop running and he wouldn't anymore. He didn't want her to cry. He only whimpered more at the sight because it broke his own heart to see her like that. She just looked so exhausted now. She seemed to be rather gifted at this whole lip syncing thing and it did make it easy to understand her. He was always watching others' expressions anyway so it was easy to watch hers and read her lips.

He had acted on impulse when he ran just like she did when she chose to chase him but he admired her all the same. He didn't blame her one bit for waht she felt. She couldn't help that just like he couldn't. Maybe he shouldn't have asked about kids and family and stuff. Maybe she read too much into it but it was his fault for not setting the record straight before. The thing was that he didn't even know what the record was himself. He knew that he cared about Tuari more than anything and that he also cared about Talien. He knew that he wanted them both in a his life more than anything. Though it seemed at this stage that hoping that they get along in his life would be a whole other story. She sat off hunched over like she felt bad about what she did or something but he didn't want that either. She did nothing wrong in his opinion. He hated seeing her cry. Even as she pawed at her eyes, he whimpered, wanting to go to her, to lick her tears away and hug her or something, comfort her in some way. But right now he wasn't sure if she wanted to be touched, least of all by him.

He didn't want to make things worse so he stayed where he was and shifted his weight, his eyes watching her intensely, his brows furrowed in concern. She seemed so frustated with herself and probably was think that she could have said something if she could talk but he didn't think twice about her being mute. It was just a part of who she was and always has been. He loved every part of her and didn't think of it as a handicap. It only made her more unique in his opinion. She kept shaking her head when he blamed himself and he couldn't help but chuckle and shake his head too.

"Seems we're at an empasse then. It's your fault and it's my fault. We'll never agree. Agree to disagree? I just don't want to fight with you, Tuari. I don't want to see you like this. Please, tell me what I can do."

He whimpered again softly, his ears flat back and his tail tucked a little. She wouldn't even look at him at this point and he hated that more than anything. Did she hate him now and couldn't even look at him? She brought her paw to her chest, once more blaming herself and he snorted, shaking his head.

"No, I won't have that. Agree to disagree."

It was the only thing he would back down on, only if she agreed to drop it for the most part cause he couldn't have her blaming herself and apparently she couldn't have him doing it either. As her tail started to swish in the leaves, he took it as a good sign but he didn't like the distant look on her face, like she was trying to bring up a mask or something. He took a daring step toward her, his eyes narrowed slightly.

"Look, I get it if you need your space or whatever but there is one thing I ask. Don't shut me out, please. Don't pretend it never happened and please, please don't avoid me. I can't live without you in my life, Tuari. You've become too much a part of it.