She couldn’t say she was proud of her actions either that day. She was certain he was just making his life harder, more difficult, and hers as well. She wanted to think that by them getting together like that, that maybe it meant he did care, but she didn’t want to go on assuming things again. She wanted to be her mother in this instance, but she knew what her mother did didn’t work so there was no reason to play rough with this matter. As much as she wanted all this to be her ideal scenario forcing it on her father didn’t work, she couldn’t imagine it would on Dexter either. That was why the choice was his. There was a lot on her mind regarding it all and constantly she was finding herself shoving back what she wanted, well there would be a lot more of that soon. Not that she resented it, she looked forward to her children regardless of Dexter’s involvement, but of course it would be brighter for her and them with him in it.

As she bumped into him a bit playfully she was surprised with his look of shock and concern. Yeah she guessed she had gotten sick in front of him a few times when he had visited, but she didn’t think that he would really think about it. She blinked in surprised before tilting her head and giving him a little push back. Though she was curious about what this surprise could be, she had one of her own to give him which might trump his a little. It wasn’t a competition but it was something she wanted to hurry and get of her chest, as it might determine whether he would want anything to do with her anymore. Tuari knew he was a decent male, that he would do whatever was best, but she also wanted him to be happy and didn’t want him to only half commit if he was there. Either he was or he wasn’t. That was one thing she was adamant on.

She shook her head a few times, to tell him to wait. A look of determination set in her eyes before softening as she lowered herself to a sit and off her sore swollen paws. Snow helped sure, but for this she wanted his attention, it wasn’t like she could be loud about it anyway. She watched him gaze softening for a time before touching her black paw to her stomach then poking his own paw again. She could feel them now, stirring, moving, spring wasn’t that far off now, perhaps she should have known sooner, but this last week it just really came clear. After all this time, as she was finding out seemed to come fast now, and she didn’t have too terribly much longer to figure out exactly what her life would be like. Still if he lifted his paw he might feel them stirring, she wasn’t sure how strong the little kicks and movements could be but they were there and very real to her now.

She smiled at him a bit shyly and clearly uncertain of everything, but her gaze didn’t falter from his own. She wanted to know exactly how he felt and Dexter wasn’t the best as masking himself from her. Really he was an open book, she never really saw him deadpan serious as she certain he must be for when he was out doing his ‘work’. That Dexter and the one she was with now were different but the same she was sure. She saw a little of it when they were on that hunt with the bear, she was certain it could get worse.

With her message passed she was ready to go back to her den, with or without him if he still wanted to give her her surprise. She just wanted to make sure it was right out in the open, no secrets, that was a promise she made to herself from now on with him. Sure maybe he could argue she should have said something sooner, but she didn’t exactly know herself until recently. She could have just been sick after all. Slowly she stood back up still smiling uncertainly after him, and motioning towards her den. She was ready to go back if he was. He seemed so eager to get her there before and out of the cold and now that she got that news off her chest she was ready to go back too.