At Leisure Lake the sun is always shining and only a few stray clouds roam the open sky; paradise is the one word that really describes it. This beautiful lake is clean and refreshing, the very best place to swim and fish. Pups are known to play here while older wolves watch at the side, engaged in their own activities.
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Posted on July 10, 2017 at 12:40:23 PM by Kahlan
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How is this femme always so happy? Throughout the entirety of the pack meeting, throughout the whole of it, she had been happy, pleasant. And even now as I approach her she is waving her plume around like a pup ready to play. Any who are looking upon us must think that we are the epitome of yin and yang, two completely different wolves interacting for some... odd reason. And it is odd, even for me. I cry out and say I want my space from others, to be responsible for only myself and yet I am here. Still, my face is a blank slab, no emotion shown behind even the small smile I have painted upon my kissers for her benefit. And then the distrance grows - as she starts to address me, her tongue lolls from her maw. She is completely and utterly relaxed, calm, content. I tilt my head and my lids purse a bit, because is not that exactly what I have been searching for for myself? Is not that the reason I have closed off the emotions within my veins, my heart, my mind? She reminds me of Macaria - the pup that was always happy and bouncing around... but even that little ebony pup had had darker moments, namely whenever her dear mother came about. I cannot bring myself to blame her for her hatred of Channing - but it had not been Channing's fault that her post partum depression had been so completely and utterly severe. Still... I find myself intrigued - though I wish I wasn't - to learn more about the varg that is my new Alphess. Has she no darkness in her past? Has nothing tainted the innocent heart of hers? Did she manage to reach adulthood without being tainted? I find myself envious of her, and it is interesting to note that though I have sought to banish my emotions, it is the darker ones that are able to slip through the cracks of their cage and upset me so. She asks how I like the pack so far and I scoff, a sound of exasperation falling from my kissers. Of course it does... she could not have supposed otherwise, could she? "Munashii Gekko has proven... quite adequate. I have been there but a day though, lady mine, and thus have not had a chance to explore all of it or delve out what secrets it may hide, by they gifts or skeletons." One day - one! That is all that is given me before I am asked to judge a place. "I am sure it will suit my needs fine. I do not require much other than a place to make a den and the sanctity of a pack to protect me while I sleep." How basic my life has become. Once I would have wanted more, more, so much more. And would I did - I wanted friends, mate, a feeling of worth, my garden of herbs... I wanted it all, the whole idea of a perfect life. But that was too complicated, and too painful. I am naught but an urchin now, living on the edge of civilization, peering in. There is a pause, awkward and thick. One of my front paws swipes up to swat a away a fly, whose irritating buzzing rang as loudly as a clarion bell in the silence that hung after I fell quiet. Right... she had asked a question, and I had answered. Manners and the rules of social etiquette demand that I continue the conversation for at least one loop before breaking away. I inhale deeply and drop my Suns toward my paws, only they are once more hidden beneath my thick plume which lies over them as a blanket. I am relieved to find that my limbs have at least stopped their trembling, my emotions calmed, thoughts of Kenshin pushed back further and further. "And you? Is the land all that you wished for and more when you decided to claim it as your own? Why did you choose this one and not one of the other dead lands?" I fail so utterly as small talk. Which is weird... the old me was a talkative varg who rarely shut up. She made friends with everyone she met, making easy conversation no matter who with. And here I am, struggling to have one conversation with the wolf who I just committed my loyalty to. How far I have fallen in my mission to rise above it all. |
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- ;;{we can't all be cheerful};; - By Milo July 11, 2017 at 00:09:53 AM
im just a puzzle missing a few pieces - By Kahlan July 14, 2017 at 03:54:36 PM
;;{we can't all be cheerful};; - By Milo July 16, 2017 at 01:30:00 AM
im just a puzzle missing a few pieces - By Kahlan July 19, 2017 at 05:07:55 PM
;;{we can't all be cheerful};; - By Milo July 31, 2017 at 03:36:58 AM
im just a puzzle missing a few pieces - By Kahlan August 1, 2017 at 01:54:30 PM
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